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emmygreen
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Anxiety, panic attacks, depression. All of the above! I have felt this way ever since I can remember. I cannot even recall a time when I have felt really, truly happy and well adjusted. I have a family history of mental health. My mother, brother, sister and cousin all suffer, or have done at one point. At times I feel like I just cannot function anymore.
I am finding that it is very difficult to talk to anyone, even my friends about these issues. They just don't experience it, so they don't understand it. They say "you're not crazy, there's nothing wrong with you, you're a good person" They mean that I'm not a freak or anything, but there most certainly IS something wrong with me, and I need help, and I need to discuss it. They mean well, but it's hard not to feel alone. Supposedly the area that I live in has a lot of people suffering with these types of things, but I never meet them. I don't know if there is a local support group of some kind. I am on a waiting list with the NHS to speak with someone about my problems.
It does not help that my current partner has been quite nasty and abusive as well. I don't want to go into the details. Unfortunately, I am trapped as I have a small child, and have been unable to get a job. The economy has been terrible, and times are hard indeed. So, I cannot just pick up and leave. Besides, where would I go? What would I do? Could I even deal with it in my current state?
I just feel like that Nina Simone song, "Nobody knows when you're down and out."
I am finding that it is very difficult to talk to anyone, even my friends about these issues. They just don't experience it, so they don't understand it. They say "you're not crazy, there's nothing wrong with you, you're a good person" They mean that I'm not a freak or anything, but there most certainly IS something wrong with me, and I need help, and I need to discuss it. They mean well, but it's hard not to feel alone. Supposedly the area that I live in has a lot of people suffering with these types of things, but I never meet them. I don't know if there is a local support group of some kind. I am on a waiting list with the NHS to speak with someone about my problems.
It does not help that my current partner has been quite nasty and abusive as well. I don't want to go into the details. Unfortunately, I am trapped as I have a small child, and have been unable to get a job. The economy has been terrible, and times are hard indeed. So, I cannot just pick up and leave. Besides, where would I go? What would I do? Could I even deal with it in my current state?
I just feel like that Nina Simone song, "Nobody knows when you're down and out."