- Sep 30, 2009
- In my own head
I am starting to get a bit worried. I am having periods of inspiration and things are happening in my favour. I know I should be glad but I am startimg to think I am going psychotic. I have just written something I did not think I could do. Its like someone has added a few more brain cells or possesed my thought patterns. I am writing poetry so fluently its scaring me. Ive not wrote any for 10 years. Also I am physically tired but my brain is wired. I am hallucinating slightly but I think its lack of sleep and staring at computer screen all day and night. I cant tare my self away from my computer and dont want to sleep cos I dont want this intervention to end. Its like something is keeping me awake for a specific reason. Im waiting for something but I dont know what. I can sense that somethimg is going to happen but I dont know what. Ive already wrote 12 poems but the ideas keep coming, Im so tired but cant rest. Ive been up for almost 24 hours. My eyes are wide awake and i just cant switch off. I feel really strange and when i shut my eyes i feel dizzy and feel like Im having an outer body experience. Do you think its lack of sleep?? Whats it all about?? Is this "normal" or should I be worried. Im scared to shut my eyes for in case I pass out while im asleep. Someone help, I dont know what to do. In fact, I'll take another oanzapine that should help. Any ideas? Has this happened to anyone else?