- Feb 28, 2020
- New Jersey usa
Honestly at this point it has gotten too far. I can't even go out alone. Being with others OR being alone gives me anxiety and I don't even know which one is worse anymore. I want to go outside and simply play basketball without having a panic attack. About what? About maybe that I look stupid or that someone will come and attack me. Anything in between. Or no reason at all. I used to be in school and I got ready for classes 3 hours ahead of time because it took me that long to convince myself to step outside my dorm. I missed too many classes and dropped out temporarily. I'm trying to get back on my feet. I just want to do things without having panic attacks. Any advice? I try music that helps sometimes but I'm too scared to wear headphones in public because what if someone's behind me and I don't hear them?