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RestlessAffect
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This is a bit long-winded and unnecessarily panicked (sorry in advance for that), but I'm kinda stressing out (far too much probably) over this and could really use any advice that people may have.
So, I've been seeing a Psychologist for a few weeks now, and it's been going well, but this last time, I was suicidal. Or should I say, I was on the edge of being suicidal. I told her that I felt like I couldn't keep myself safe for very much longer, and she arranged for me to be taken to hospital. She asked if I wanted to keep seeing her for therapy once I was 'okay' again, and I told her that I did, but no further appointment was made.
Since then, I've been trying to contact my Psychologist to arrange another appointment, but she's not answering her phone when I call her, and she hasn't replied to my email. Part of me is thinking that *because* of what happened, that my sessions with her are over (I realise that I might be being a bit silly there, but it's something that won't stop plaguing my thoughts.)
Should I be fretting about not being able to reach my Psychologist, or that she hasn't contacted me? Is it normal that she always lets her phone ring to voicemail? (voicemail makes me panic even more than just a normal phone conversation does, which means it's next to impossible for me to leave any sort of coherent message so I just hang up before it even gets to voicemail.)
Am I making a big deal out of nothing? I have such poor experience with this kind of thing (and most other things too) that I honestly don't know what to think. I'm trying not to get too lost in anxiety and paranoid thinking, but I think I'm losing it. Sorry if I'm being a bit stupid and wasting anyone's time with this, I just have no idea what to do.
So, I've been seeing a Psychologist for a few weeks now, and it's been going well, but this last time, I was suicidal. Or should I say, I was on the edge of being suicidal. I told her that I felt like I couldn't keep myself safe for very much longer, and she arranged for me to be taken to hospital. She asked if I wanted to keep seeing her for therapy once I was 'okay' again, and I told her that I did, but no further appointment was made.
Since then, I've been trying to contact my Psychologist to arrange another appointment, but she's not answering her phone when I call her, and she hasn't replied to my email. Part of me is thinking that *because* of what happened, that my sessions with her are over (I realise that I might be being a bit silly there, but it's something that won't stop plaguing my thoughts.)
Should I be fretting about not being able to reach my Psychologist, or that she hasn't contacted me? Is it normal that she always lets her phone ring to voicemail? (voicemail makes me panic even more than just a normal phone conversation does, which means it's next to impossible for me to leave any sort of coherent message so I just hang up before it even gets to voicemail.)
Am I making a big deal out of nothing? I have such poor experience with this kind of thing (and most other things too) that I honestly don't know what to think. I'm trying not to get too lost in anxiety and paranoid thinking, but I think I'm losing it. Sorry if I'm being a bit stupid and wasting anyone's time with this, I just have no idea what to do.
