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Zaku
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Hi, um i was looking for help online to try to help me get over some of my problems and i found this forum.
Ok so i guess i'l just start *deep breathe* I'm 21 i'v never really had a reason to be alive i mean i just alway's felt that i was useless. I never fit in any where not in school, my "friends" or my family and thing's have just started coming out so iguess i'l just tell you all some of my problems
I can't seem to find a job any where an then when i apply to stores an stuff my brother tells me that those arn't jobs for someone my age. All my friends have no problems finding work so i feel left out because i feel like a failure because everyone in my family has never had a problem finding work. About my friends...i feel like they only call me when they need or want something. Their the type of people that if you disagree with them they make you feel completely stupid an start to insult you infront of everyone. And this other person i know only calls me when he needs something because the last few times he's called me were to give him rides an let him borrow money. And with all this and my other problems i've found that the only time i can calm down and focus on one thing is when i cut myself i mean someone as worthless as me deserves the pain anyway right? I can't seem to find anyone that really likes me, and i need other people around me to be happy but those people are the reason i feel so crappy about myself, and they're always trying to change me..i thought friends were suposed to like you the way you are and tell youto be yourself. I'm not trying to bitch an complain but i started cutting myself a week ago and i haven't stopped since. I just feel like a waste of a human life, no one likes me and no one ever will i wasn't even suposed to be born.
Sorry if it just seems like i'm bitching and complaining.
Ok so i guess i'l just start *deep breathe* I'm 21 i'v never really had a reason to be alive i mean i just alway's felt that i was useless. I never fit in any where not in school, my "friends" or my family and thing's have just started coming out so iguess i'l just tell you all some of my problems
I can't seem to find a job any where an then when i apply to stores an stuff my brother tells me that those arn't jobs for someone my age. All my friends have no problems finding work so i feel left out because i feel like a failure because everyone in my family has never had a problem finding work. About my friends...i feel like they only call me when they need or want something. Their the type of people that if you disagree with them they make you feel completely stupid an start to insult you infront of everyone. And this other person i know only calls me when he needs something because the last few times he's called me were to give him rides an let him borrow money. And with all this and my other problems i've found that the only time i can calm down and focus on one thing is when i cut myself i mean someone as worthless as me deserves the pain anyway right? I can't seem to find anyone that really likes me, and i need other people around me to be happy but those people are the reason i feel so crappy about myself, and they're always trying to change me..i thought friends were suposed to like you the way you are and tell youto be yourself. I'm not trying to bitch an complain but i started cutting myself a week ago and i haven't stopped since. I just feel like a waste of a human life, no one likes me and no one ever will i wasn't even suposed to be born.
Sorry if it just seems like i'm bitching and complaining.