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Lillie10
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Hello everyone,
I am new here and need to say a few things right now to get my anger and frustration out.
So, please excuse my ignorance towards this site.
I have been suffering from severe depression now for about six years and feel like I am going no where. I won't go into my past problems vs now problems.
I just want to scream and shout! I want to tell everyone to leave me alone.
I want someone to hear me. I want some one to hug me... But I don't want to be touched. don't judge me until you have been there yourself and don't feel sorry for me. Just hear me!
I am shattered in little pieces and cannot be put back together.
Try as I might but I keeping cracking. I wonder if I will actually get through this. I so often want to give up. I feel paranoid, lost, hurt and anger.
I have no idea what to do with all that is built up inside me. I feel like I am going to explode.
I hate that I am unable to sleep because I am so miserable. Thinking of my past. can't change it. I can't even patch it together. I feel like I am losing it.
I am so tired of feeling the hate, hurt and anger.
I talk and talk to my psychiatrist and feel like I am at a dead end. Where do I go from here?
How long can I go on feeling like this. I can only take so much and I have taken a lot. I need it all to end...
Working is so hard when you feel this dispair. But I must carry on. I have to work to support myself. Sometimes, I think about how nice it would be to have soneone tell you it's ok and I don't have to work.
So many hardships. I know others go through the same thing and I am not exempt. I just want to be exempt. For a little while anyway.
I need to feel free, to let go.
No need to reply. I needed to say this.
Looking for peace.
Lillie
I am new here and need to say a few things right now to get my anger and frustration out.
So, please excuse my ignorance towards this site.
I have been suffering from severe depression now for about six years and feel like I am going no where. I won't go into my past problems vs now problems.
I just want to scream and shout! I want to tell everyone to leave me alone.
I want someone to hear me. I want some one to hug me... But I don't want to be touched. don't judge me until you have been there yourself and don't feel sorry for me. Just hear me!
I am shattered in little pieces and cannot be put back together.
Try as I might but I keeping cracking. I wonder if I will actually get through this. I so often want to give up. I feel paranoid, lost, hurt and anger.
I have no idea what to do with all that is built up inside me. I feel like I am going to explode.
I hate that I am unable to sleep because I am so miserable. Thinking of my past. can't change it. I can't even patch it together. I feel like I am losing it.
I am so tired of feeling the hate, hurt and anger.
I talk and talk to my psychiatrist and feel like I am at a dead end. Where do I go from here?
How long can I go on feeling like this. I can only take so much and I have taken a lot. I need it all to end...
Working is so hard when you feel this dispair. But I must carry on. I have to work to support myself. Sometimes, I think about how nice it would be to have soneone tell you it's ok and I don't have to work.
So many hardships. I know others go through the same thing and I am not exempt. I just want to be exempt. For a little while anyway.
I need to feel free, to let go.
No need to reply. I needed to say this.
Looking for peace.
Lillie