Welcome to the foroum well done for posting.
When you feel ready too tell us more about your situation and how you are feeling we will be ready to listen and support.
Take care keep strong and keep talking
Thank you all for being so nice and welcoming. As for my situation i am diagnosed as bipolar with mixed episodes/ rapid cycles, generalized anxiety, ocd, ptsd, and insomnia... as of now i am not taking any medications for the bipolar due to previous medication experiences ( I've been on over 50 different kinds) I've struggled with disordered eating for years, and drug addiction... i've been clean from my drug of choice for almost 8 months....i seem to be ok, good days and bad days, i think that's normal though?
you will have your good and bad days so sorry i cant advise on bi-polar as i dont suffer with it myself but there are poeple on here who do suffer with it and will be able to support and advise you.
Have you seen your doctor latetly? are you on any counselling or talking therapy?
Yeah i see a doctor and therapist, i just stated seeing them again because i disappeared when i was using drugs conveniently. This last time i saw the doctor he prescribed me some bogus sleeping and anxiety pills that made me sick so i quit taking them. Next time i go in just going to request klonopin or ativan because i know how those affect me. And something different for sleep. I have found a really good therapist, he seems to help and give good advice. At least he's not like my last therapist, i changed companies because of her ( it was a strange situation to explain without someone's jaw dropping) and my last doctor (he will prescribe you anything without even asking if the meds your already on work)
i hope this therapist is more helpful to you. i know with different therapists you find they are better for you i jsut found out who i had been looking for ages now shes been ripped from away me and im back to square one and she was an aamzing therapist and the one for me!.
I hope you can find the right medication soon
You'll definately have good and bad days with your disordered eating Shaya.I still go through very rough times some 23 years after being anorexic. I've found it does help having a great place like this to come and share. I say that and I only joined days ago!
Thank you both, and right now I'm ednos it's been a struggle for me to not start using drugs again mainly because of my weight gain, I've had a lot of my restricting behaviors come back but anything's better than the drugs i was doing i guess? One thing that's still helping me is my not permitting myself to have a scale in my house.... that still doesn't stop my obsessive thoughts about how fat ive gotten since i got clean
When you say you have restrictive eating behaviours, what do you mean exactly, if you don't mind me asking? Definately a good thing that you don't have scales, because that added greatly to my problem!
Except for smoking weed a few times, I've never taken anything other than prescription drugs. It's never appealed to me for some reason.
I know my problem with the whole disordered eating is changing my mindset, which I've found hard though I'm getting there slowly. Do you eat helathy foods when you actually eat? I found the problem with restricting is that it slowed my metabolism right down. I've also developed reflux as a result of purging
Did the photo i attached show up? And yeah i try to eat healthy, fruits, veggies, but i also live with my mom so if i restrict too much she gets onto me, i always make myself eat something for breakfast like yogurt, or a bagel, then something for lunch like a salad, then a small dinner which is whatever is cooked