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Hello everyone,

I have suffered depression and anxiety pretty much all of my life. I'm never free of it. I have mild to moderate depression when life is good and it makes life intolerable when life is difficult. Since I walked out of my job 13 years ago, my anxiety has worsened. For a while, I couldn't go out of the house because of panic attacks. Now, I can only go out with someone else, so my life is largely over. I am a loner and I've been reasonably content to be that way. I think I need to be that way. Trying to fit in eventually results in a breakdown. It might take months, sometimes years, but eventually I can't take it any more. I've seen psychiatrists when I was younger. Nothing was done to help me. I have taken medication when I was younger. It made me feel numb and doesn't solve the underlying problem -- i.e. my brain doesn't work as it should. I've talked, but it doesn't help. Now, I have a phobia (not just a simple fear) of doctors, so getting what little help there is is almost impossible. I live in the UK, so because I'm not in the NHS system, I'm on my own. I can't even get a Covid vaccination without a fight. Online private doctors won't help me with mental health issues because I don't have an NHS GP. I'm frightened, frankly.
thanks for reading,
LC
 
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You'll get more welcomes I think, when I was getting panic attacks a few years ago, I could have done with someone telling me to research the power of the mind - maybe that will help you...
 
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I was asleep at the time this was posted, but welcome! I hope you find it helpful to be able to vent here. If I may inquire as to your phobia of doctors, does that include therapists? Their function isn't to prescribe medications, either. My therapist is amazing, and I have a separate psychiatrist that does the medications. I hope that, at the least, you find that you can open up here. Take care!
 
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Hello LoneCat. I would just like to welcome you to the forum. Your difficulties sound very isolating. Have you considered maybe speaking to Mind? They do advocacy and could potentially speak on your behalf. There is also citizen advice. It sounds like your anxiety is shutting down the very things you need to access to get it more under control. It is cruel like that, I lost some years as well. The fears then magnify when you are trapped alone. I hope you can break the cycle as I did. It does not have to be as hopeless as it seems.


 
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Thank so much to all who have replied. It really helps. I have talked to Mind and they have given me helplines to try. Ghost_Owl. "The fears then magnify when you are trapped alone." Yes. This is exactly what happens. It's terrifying sometimes.
 
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Would you consider a therapist again? It was a therapist who specialised in exposure therapy that helped me most. My Phobia extended to all people at one point but through graded exposure I managed to become sociable again. Certainly wasn't easy but to have not done it would likely mean I wouldn't be typing this now.
 
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Hi Lonecat welcome to the forum :welcome:
 
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