- Oct 31, 2018
Hi. Im new to the forum so just wanted to introduce myself. Im 29 and have ocd. I suffered really badly at the age of 11 when my mum and dad split but then the compulsions gradually got less without me really working at them too much. I got with my boyfriend (now ex) 7 years ago. Long story short we had several things happen in our relationship (not related to the relationship but outside factors) which brought on my ocd again about 4 and a half years ago. It just got worse. I even moved from the house wed brought as i thought that was the trigger. He went through hell with me. I thought i was getting better but all i was doing was getting better at hiding it and the compulsions people knew about they allowed me to carry on. So i didnt see the problem-you know what its like. Anyway, 2 months ago he split from me. He said he couldnt cope any more and if he stayed with me much longer he would commit suicide. Im obviously destrought. Ive lost someone that put up with so much even though i promised id get better. Ive lost my home and a lot of money. But on top of that i have the realisation im worse with my ocd and i also have the guilt of making him poorly. He has his own anxiety and depression problems now. Ive started on medication and im awaiting therapy. Im also off work at the mo and my occy health guy is great so hes trting to help. I try and master some things but others seem so hard. I dont want losing my relationship to be in vain but will i ever get past this with how much its already consumed my life?