- Nov 19, 2009
- in a waking dream
hello, i have been taking a new medication aripiprazole (abilify) 25mgs for a few months now and my hallucinations have stopped am still hearing voices but the intensity has lowered dramatically, i am also not feeling as paraniod as was before so this has to be a good thing, still confused about it all and trying to accept that it wasnt real.its just at present am feeling quite depressed latly my brother moved in with me and helps take care of my son who is disabled,(autism) i get very anxous and worried if i have to meet anyone, since i was ill ive lost all my friends and just stay home somtimes i feel invisable and wish i wasnt around anymore my brother doesnt understand and thinks im stupid i was diagnosed with paraniod schizophrenia after i left hospital a year ago. my health care worker is pleased with my progress and thinks i have done really well i am always upbeat and smily around her she thinks its nothing a bit of exercise wont fix! but its more than that yes my weight does bother me as i put 4 stone on whilst taking risperidone, i have started self harming again i dont no why but seeing it makes me feel better. i feel lonely yet suffocated at the same time cant get any space away from my brother he isnt working at the moment so he is around all the time taking the piss! my parents worrie to they around lots so i stay happy but inside im lost and confused a bit of a fuck up! if my family new i was harming again i dread to think what would happen..i feel so low what can i do.