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Kaiku
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Hey all.
I just joined.
I'm Nicki (or Kaiku) I suffer from some form of anxiety or whatever i haven't actually been given a name for what I have just drugs, lol.
I'm 22 and have had anxiety attacks for years. Just before Christmas last year they got really bad and I had to take time off work. Since then I've moved department.. but the job i moved to just got taken away from me like 2 months ago so now I'm doing something I'm totally crap at.
Around about August time I cut my nights down from 4 to 2, so I'm barely earning enough to survive on just now... so you can I'm sure you can understand oh insanely pissed off at myself I am for phoning in sick this week (tonight and tomorrow night).
Seems I can't even manage 2 nights a week. I honestly don't know what to do just how. Money is a huge worry for me and i know i won't have enough to pay rent next month now. I know all this yet I still phoned in sick.
Right now I just have feeling of giving up, I kind of just want to ignore everything and just act like it not happening. I don't want to tell my boyfriend about this, because I'm useless enough as it is without totally admitting that I can't cope with anything anymore.
I know yeah i should go to my GP but that just doesn't work for me because the minute I start talking about these thing I start joking and smiling.
Typing this i'm realizing just how unstable I am right now, but I guess I needed to cry and I needed to admit this all to myself but still.
Still it begs the question.. WTF am I going to do? What can I do?
Wow that some introduction... didn't really mean to tell my life story...
I just joined.
I'm Nicki (or Kaiku) I suffer from some form of anxiety or whatever i haven't actually been given a name for what I have just drugs, lol.
I'm 22 and have had anxiety attacks for years. Just before Christmas last year they got really bad and I had to take time off work. Since then I've moved department.. but the job i moved to just got taken away from me like 2 months ago so now I'm doing something I'm totally crap at.
Around about August time I cut my nights down from 4 to 2, so I'm barely earning enough to survive on just now... so you can I'm sure you can understand oh insanely pissed off at myself I am for phoning in sick this week (tonight and tomorrow night).
Seems I can't even manage 2 nights a week. I honestly don't know what to do just how. Money is a huge worry for me and i know i won't have enough to pay rent next month now. I know all this yet I still phoned in sick.
Right now I just have feeling of giving up, I kind of just want to ignore everything and just act like it not happening. I don't want to tell my boyfriend about this, because I'm useless enough as it is without totally admitting that I can't cope with anything anymore.
I know yeah i should go to my GP but that just doesn't work for me because the minute I start talking about these thing I start joking and smiling.
Typing this i'm realizing just how unstable I am right now, but I guess I needed to cry and I needed to admit this all to myself but still.
Still it begs the question.. WTF am I going to do? What can I do?
Wow that some introduction... didn't really mean to tell my life story...