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YellowBrickRoad
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Hello. My names Leanne, I live in north Wales with my daughter and my partner my 2 kittens Topcat and Benny and my puppy Murphy. When my daughter was 14 weeks old I was diagnosed with Post Natal Depression. I was prescribed something and began my road to recovery. A month later I began to feel a bit better but had some terrible side effects, dizzyness, sickness and blurred sight and speech. I told my Dr and asked for something else or some therapy instead. My Dr refused give me a repeat prescription and sent me on my merry way. I decided to give it another month but a few weeks later my blurred sight was so bad I fell down the stairs. Hurt and upset I refused to take any more of the tablets and decided to take vitamins and self help feeling betrayed by my Dr I didn't go back to her again. Months later when my daughter was roughly 8 months I realised I was kidding myself, I felt no better and I wasn't the only one who notice. My partner told me when I sat down and asked him if he had noticed anything that my behaviour had become unreasonable, erratic even. He had noticed I was having mood swings that would almost frighten him. I had become a different person, my skin had become pale, I had lost weight, I wasn't looking after myself or my appearance anymore I had become unloving and lost my sense of humour. At first I felt angry at him and myself but after a while I realised he was right. I was becoming a monster to live with and worse still I was ruining things for our daughter. How could I let myself get this way? 
Being told all this so frankly and openly I got worse. Then a few weeks ago just before Christmas I has a complete breakdown. I went into A&E where they referred me to a psychiatric nurse the next day. Over the next few days I had a lot of appointments and a lot people coming to see me. I was prescribed a new anti-depressant. Metazapine with a higher dosage and was referred to a counsellor who I met a few days ago. My health visitor was called who came round to discuss baby groups, parent support and housing support to get me out of the rubbish area and closer to my friends and family. As I have a family history of depression and suicide family have been very supportive especially as when I was 14 I tried to take my own life.
Today I've taken a massive step and gone out the door to a baby club. This to me is my first and most important step to self helping myself recover. The beginning of my personal "yellow brick road" (hence the name). I know that Post Natal Depression along with other mental issues are very unspoken of and people are made to feel ashamed. No one ever talked about it to me when I was pregnant or when my girl was born. I felt guilty for feeling so low. I didn't have the easiest of labours and had a emergency c section after more than 30 hours of labour and my health visitor tells me this could be a factor.
I came on this website and I was hoping to share experiences with others with post natal depression or other depression.
hope to meet some nice people. 
Leanne x
Being told all this so frankly and openly I got worse. Then a few weeks ago just before Christmas I has a complete breakdown. I went into A&E where they referred me to a psychiatric nurse the next day. Over the next few days I had a lot of appointments and a lot people coming to see me. I was prescribed a new anti-depressant. Metazapine with a higher dosage and was referred to a counsellor who I met a few days ago. My health visitor was called who came round to discuss baby groups, parent support and housing support to get me out of the rubbish area and closer to my friends and family. As I have a family history of depression and suicide family have been very supportive especially as when I was 14 I tried to take my own life.
Today I've taken a massive step and gone out the door to a baby club. This to me is my first and most important step to self helping myself recover. The beginning of my personal "yellow brick road" (hence the name). I know that Post Natal Depression along with other mental issues are very unspoken of and people are made to feel ashamed. No one ever talked about it to me when I was pregnant or when my girl was born. I felt guilty for feeling so low. I didn't have the easiest of labours and had a emergency c section after more than 30 hours of labour and my health visitor tells me this could be a factor. I came on this website and I was hoping to share experiences with others with post natal depression or other depression.
hope to meet some nice people. Leanne x
Leanne
