I suppose I better explain a bit about what happened,as young as I can remember I was really scared of my step father, he was a really big Irish builder, about 20 stone in weight, I can remember getting slapped, belted, hit a lot, I remember the pervert doing things when I was about 5-6 years old which carried on till I was 13-14 yrs old, I also remember him beating my mam a lot, I think she was so scared as well, everyone thought this fella was really good, kind ,do anything for anyone, I knew he was evil, he was disgusting, spitting phlegm in my face making me stand in a outside toilet naked for hours at a time, my mam used to work different jobs and be out of the house a lot, that is when most sexual stuff happened, there is hundreds of things I remember that I want to forget, I used to love when visitors called to the house,so his attention be not on me, I was scared to death of this person even till he died when I was about 27 years old, I am now 52 yrs old and have lived with this in my mind all these years and it really gets to me, my one life and it's messed up by this SICKO, any help would be good,
