- Mar 15, 2010
Hi, I have found this forum whilst browsing the internet. I have suffered from depression for about 12 years, and have taken meds and not taken them. I thought it was all under control until about a year ago when a job I hated sort of flipped me over the edge. To many I'm the life and soul of the party, the loud outgoing person. To a select few, including a close friend and my husband I can be either happy or suffer from feelings of hopelessness and continual suicidal thoughts. I have never been diagnosed as bipolar (to be honest I have found gp's on the whole seem to have very little knowledge about mental health issues) My husband suggested that it was a possibility, and researching it I think he's probably onto something. I am either very focused and have loads of far fetched crazy plans, ideas and schemes or feel very low and alienated, paranoid and struggle to leave the house. Anyway I guess I just wanted to write it all down. I am not sure whether to go to the Doctor and explain how I feel, as I'm not sure whether I would be willing to take any medication based on my experiences with anti depressants which only made me worse, anyway what do you guys all think?