Hello im johnny

[johnny ashton]

hello im johnny
Im 39 years old ,im recently divorced ,and have had to learn to talk ,i had a very severe stutter .
Im hoping to off load some emotional baggage and help other people on here to learn to live a better life .
Im in a healing process at the moment through mental and sexual abuse as a child ,i admitted to my wife and her parents i was abused as a child and this is where my horror of a life turned to hell .
Im feeling stronger and more confident then ever ,its the first time i love myself .
Thanks
Johnny

 

[Dollit]

Hi and welcome - hope you find some support here and I'm sure you'll be able to give some!

 

[Ashami]

Sounds like you've been going thru a real tough time and im sure you will find support and friendship here.

Welcome Johnny

 

[Libra1]

Hi Johnny and to MHF

 

[johnny ashton]

Thanks for the replies guys .
Ive been hoping to find a forum like this for years.
Lifes hard but we all have to carry on .
Take care
Johnny

 

[companion]

Hi Johnny and

I hope join eveyone else in hoping that you find your way around the forum ok. Sounds like things are pretty tough at the moment, but I am sure you will find some support on here.

If you need, anything just ask.

Take care

Companion

 

[johnny ashton]

Thanks for the reply
Im hoping to start healing now .
Ive had a few hard years feeling worthless ,im starting to love myself at last i still have panic attacks but not severe anymore ,my speach has improved and its good to be able to speak atlast .
Ill try and help and guide people with what ive learnt and im hoping for more help with me rebuilding my life .
Thank you very much
Johnny ashton
Im off all drugs and drink lager now ,ill admit i do have a odd joint at night but thats all .

Hi Johnny and

I hope join eveyone else in hoping that you find your way around the forum ok. Sounds like things are pretty tough at the moment, but I am sure you will find some support on here.

If you need, anything just ask.

Take care

Companion

 

[johnny ashton]

Lifes great really now i dont feel anger anymore ,
I think using illegal drugs did not help my condition also drinking heavily ..
If anyone uses hard illegal drugs id kick them in the head now they will just make your problems a thousand times worse and you will never start making an improvement .
Ill always be scarred by what has happened in my life and im hoping in time to help severe stutterers .
I do attend a support group and have joined a toastmasters to try and learn to talk to crowds .
I did suffer severe social problems this was due to having a severe stutter since ive cleaned up my life and stop getting out of reality .
Ive faced all my problems head on and put my life down on paper and this has also reduced tension and helped my healing process .
I hope im talking sense and people can see the improvements im making .
Take care
Johnny
Also learning to love your self i know how it feels to feel worthless and lost .

 

[Dollit]

Well done Johnny that's inspiring to know that people can turn themselves around. I know that my life improved vastly when I stopped the drugs and the booze. I stopped because I was told that if I didn't I had two years to live. And two years to live means you're dying but it will take two long and agonizing years. Keep it up it really does get better as the years go by.