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Alaskagirl

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I'm new to forums or chats but I'm certainly not new to being agoraphobic. It has gotten progresssively worse over the years. It's now the worst its ever been. Also I have been diagnosed Bi-polar 1, I'm not sure if I believe that but I´m also not sure it matters. I always just thought I was severely depressed.
I am here because I'm lonely. Really lonely. It's pathetic to think that I could raise 3 beautiful children, and I do mean beautiful, they are delicious to look at and intelligent and sooo funny and I can not step out the bloody front door. Today is my youngest son´s birthday, he turned 20, and I am unable to go do anything with him.
 
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Hello. I am bipolar...I have bipolar I. I was once not leaving the house but it came from mental problems that I didn't realize were problems at the time. I think it is good that you are getting help. In my case my mental problems changed before I got help and I gradually started to go outside again. I think you will fare better than me since you are getting help already. :hug: All the best xx
 
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Hello. I am bipolar...I have bipolar I. I was once not leaving the house but it came from mental problems that I didn't realize were problems at the time. I think it is good that you are getting help. In my case my mental problems changed before I got help and I gradually started to go outside again. I think you will fare better than me since you are getting help already. :hug: All the best xx
Thank you. It helps so much to know that there are others that have felt this way or feel this way. I always have so many questions, then I am afraid to ask or they fall out of my head and i am unable to remember. Memory seems worse the more severe this gets. At least for me.
 
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Thank you. It helps so much to know that there are others that have felt this way or feel this way. I always have so many questions, then I am afraid to ask or they fall out of my head and i am unable to remember. Memory seems worse the more severe this gets. At least for me.
My memory is terrible. My psychiatrist said it is due to depression. I seldom have depressed mood, but I am bipolar...I guess that is where the depression is going. In the past I used to have depressed mood.
 
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Congratulations on raising great children!💕❤
That is the nicest thing anyone could ever EVER say to me 💞 My youngest who is having his birthday today was just accepted into the American Academy of Dramatic Arts. I am so proud of him! So the lonely bits are really going to hit me. My husband is gone 6 weeks at a time, then home for 1 week. My daughter goes to school on the east coast and my oldest son is married to a wonderful girl and they have a daughter (my darling granddaughter). I need to find a new purpose. I gave up my career when my oldest was 6 as he was special needs, it worked well. I home schooled him, he ended up going to college and getting married. Things the drs. said he would never be able to do. He has a brilliant job and is a charming, intelligent person and fun to be around. When I left work, that´s when the agoraphobia started to get worse. It was always there, just under the surface.
 
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OMG Congratulations to your youngest! That is a great achievement for the both of you!! Congratulations to your daughter and you! And WOW on your oldest. My son is special needs, that would be like a dream come true for me for him to have such good social functioning. You are an amazing mom. Well done!! Have you ever considered going back to work?
 
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I am not ignoring what you are saying about being lonely but I do not know how to respond. I like being alone.
 
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