- Jan 21, 2020
Hi. I am 24 years old and I've been suffering from general and social anxiety for my entire life. I've suffered from depression and derealization too. I recently have some horrible, horrible thoughts arising due to the events in last six months. Now what I'm gonna say might sound crazy, but here it is.. I am afraid of feelings. I am afraid of existing, afraid of feeling anything, because they don't make sense for me anymore. I mean I'm in such condition that watching a tv show, going out for a walk, doing something I used to like doesn't make any sense for me anymore. Happiness, being alive just feels unimportant.. I don't know if anything or anyone can help me after this point.. I don't think it's depression either.. it's just my thought pattern. PLEASE SOMEONE SUGGEST SOMETHING TO ME BECAUSE I'M 24/7 SUICIDAL AND CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.