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Hello.. I need urgent help. I can't really take it anymore and I am not sure if it's depression.

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DontHaveOne

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Hi. I am 24 years old and I've been suffering from general and social anxiety for my entire life. I've suffered from depression and derealization too. I recently have some horrible, horrible thoughts arising due to the events in last six months. Now what I'm gonna say might sound crazy, but here it is.. I am afraid of feelings. I am afraid of existing, afraid of feeling anything, because they don't make sense for me anymore. I mean I'm in such condition that watching a tv show, going out for a walk, doing something I used to like doesn't make any sense for me anymore. Happiness, being alive just feels unimportant.. I don't know if anything or anyone can help me after this point.. I don't think it's depression either.. it's just my thought pattern. PLEASE SOMEONE SUGGEST SOMETHING TO ME BECAUSE I'M 24/7 SUICIDAL AND CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE.
 
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Hello

It sounds to me like you need professional support. I’m not sure what is available in turkey but do you have the equivalent of an emergency drs appointment or an emergency room? A mental health emergency is just as valid as a physical one.

I’m not saying don’t post, please do but it does seem like you could go with some on the ground help.
 
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DontHaveOne

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Hello

It sounds to me like you need professional support. I’m not sure what is available in turkey but do you have the equivalent of an emergency drs appointment or an emergency room? A mental health emergency is just as valid as a physical one.

I’m not saying don’t post, please do but it does seem like you could go with some on the ground help.
Yeah I know that I need professional help but none of my family members seem to understand.. I will go to a free therapist on 29th of the month if i can hold onto life until 29th.. Also the suicidal crisis page says "but its the emotional pain we want to stop, not life itself " this. I am not sure its emotional pain i feel, i think i just want to stop "life itself".. Change my mind please.. i need it..
 
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Hi DontHaveOne
Life its self is precious so do not think about loosing it, I know because I tried it and by god I am glad it failed, I still have these thoughts but know I will not do any thing about them, Family hardly ever understand what one is going through, they think it will all blow over but it dosent
So go to the doctors on the 29th and just hold it togrther till then.
All the best woolie.
 
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DontHaveOne

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Hi DontHaveOne
Life its self is precious so do not think about loosing it, I know because I tried it and by god I am glad it failed, I still have these thoughts but know I will not do any thing about them, Family hardly ever understand what one is going through, they think it will all blow over but it dosent
So go to the doctors on the 29th and just hold it togrther till then.
All the best woolie.
Thank you for your reply.. Do you think that meds can help me..? Cuz I've been using xanax for months and it doesn't make me forget these unnatural thoughts..
 
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Thank you for your reply.. Do you think that meds can help me..? Cuz I've been using xanax for months and it doesn't make me forget these unnatural thoughts..
xanax may not be the drug for you, you need to go and see a doctor and he will review your case
I hope you do and you will feel better soon.
All the best woolie.
 
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Hello
I’m sorry you’re suffering so much.
Your thoughts/feelings become obsession that you cannot get rid of.
Hope you can find a good profrssional help ASAP.
 
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Thanks a lot guys.. I don't know how to get myself out of this situation.. I will see a doctor on 29th if I can hold on that long..
 
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Thanks a lot guys.. I don't know how to get myself out of this situation.. I will see a doctor on 29th if I can hold on that long..
You can do it. I know how you are feeling - I've been there. Just keep telling yourself, one more week. Just get through each day.

And yes, the right meds will help you. It might take a bit to get them sorted properly, but meds make a big difference for me.

It's not life you want to escape, it's the constant pressure of how you feel
 
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DontHaveOne

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You can do it. I know how you are feeling - I've been there. Just keep telling yourself, one more week. Just get through each day.

And yes, the right meds will help you. It might take a bit to get them sorted properly, but meds make a big difference for me.

It's not life you want to escape, it's the constant pressure of how you feel
Thank you.. for giving me hope. I've been on antideprassants before and only thing they all did was make me much worser. They say its gonna take a while before it works but I'm afraid that if I will be much worser than this again, I can't take that pain..
 
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