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NM1

NM1

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Hello i am new to this site i have heard voices for 10 years They can take control of my body and make me do things i don't want to do like break things. apart from the internal voices i experience the voices or entities manipulate my external experiences too such as blowing on my face to provoke me to anger. it is a girl i knew from my past that likes to blow on my face i don't see her but she is in my head than i will feel cold air blow across my face and i can t do anything to stop it she knows this pisses me off and she does it as a joke.

The main voice who is the Joker from the Dark knight is the head of the people in my head that are made up of people that i know from my past in high school. they all take turns tormenting me one by one they tell me i need to be a man and that i was a punk bitch for not manning up to them. I tell them to meet me on the streets outside but the never show up. they remain in my head for the time being. the can manipulate my environment making me hallucinate using my 5 senses. they can talk to me telepathically and can hurt me physically.they want me to do endless push ups and bur-pees run around the block until they say they are tired so sit-ups drop out of school get rid of all my electronics and video games my iPhone my laptop my desktop my Nintendo switch. they want me to be broke and suffer
everyday the try to get me to get rid of my stuff drop out of school and put me through grueling boot camp exercises and then they say they will let me go but they never do.

They like to send me to jail so that they can torture me because i go to the psyche floor of the jail where i am in a single man cell for 23 hours a day and one hour out to take a shower.
they torment me in my cell to no end where no one can hear my cry and even if they do the jail guards don't do anything and on top of that what am i going to tell them? i hear voices? all they will do is tell the nurse to get me meds and that's it. this last time i went to jail they tortured me so much that i am afraid of ever going to jail again i was hallucinating like crazy. and lost my mine . Last episode i had the voices had my in the hospital i was screaming and yelling because i was having an extreme panic attack. and i am also claustrophobic and i could take being strapped down to a gurney with 4 point restraints do i couldn't move it was hell the worst experience that i have ever experienced in my life the whole time the voices where laughing at me a bitch and whatnot.

A while back in 2014 i was using crystal meth because i thought it would help me with my voices but it did the opposite i was hallucinating with the voices even more and i was so high i did something which badly injured me. Thanks to God i am still here today writing this story to you now.

All these things happened with me listening to the voices fighting the voices and going through life the best way i know how. The voices were behind me the whole time commenting on my actions and making fun of me and plotting to kill me. they are till here and there are many other things that they have done the ha either sent me to the hospital or jail. i stopped using Crystal meth 4 years ago and have cleaned up my life i quit using drugs smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol. i even stopped watching sexually explicit movies since i am a christian. So i am doing all the right things but the voices persist. they are worse now than they have ever been and i am getting scared that they are going to try to do something again they seem to have power but i don't know they like that i am afraid i have tried everything so now im just getting into the Bible worshiping Jesus and holding on to him. there is no telling what the voices will do but i'm going to hold on i'm going to challenge them this week so if i m back on here tomorrow you will know that i am still alive. The voices also want me to harm myself ill take about that later thank you for your time.
 
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Hopeful313

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Hi and welcome to the forum.

I am really sorry to hear that you are struggling. Sound like you’ve been through a lot. You are very brave and strong to talk about those horrible experiences.

Have you looked into alternative treatments. Do you think there’s an interference in your life by other beings like spirits or ghosts?

I hope things get better for you soon.
 
NM1

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I think that they are spiritual beings who like to torment me. i have no explanation for them . pride in knowing i cant define them. they say nobody is going to believe me if i tell them about the voices. they torture me day and night. thanks for you concern i would like to hear other peoples feedback on this is possible. particularity someone who i s going through the same thing. or similar.
 
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If you haven't already, you may want to see a doctor for these voices and possibly start taking an antipsychotic medication to help tone the voices down to get some relief. The medication definitely helped with me.
 
modem

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Just wanted to point you are not alone. It's very common and it happens to a lot of us.
I would like you to know I heard in the past very malicious voice constantly intimidating and devaluating. Would sounds to me like being in a rape gang for years. And they would call on mercy and love daily meanwhile destroying me.
Despite it's very difficult to find any solution for oneself's I would like you to know I have a good job and a positive situation, I don't say that it is easy but that with time and perseverance I have come to an increasing well being and that I can live normally on the outside aspect of it at least with achievements and evolution (including having a good sexual life).
 
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I too live in a spiritual experience and my signs and advice let me know my voices are hated and going to hell and that I have to be keep patience because justice exist and everything will be disclosed with times, bro.
 
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They try to push me to suicide for 13years now. I am just without any solution. I only can tell you that my life improved a lot with years.
 
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hakim

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Hello i am new to this site i have heard voices for 10 years They can take control of my body and make me do things i don't want to do like break things. apart from the internal voices i experience the voices or entities manipulate my external experiences too such as blowing on my face to provoke me to anger. it is a girl i knew from my past that likes to blow on my face i don't see her but she is in my head than i will feel cold air blow across my face and i can t do anything to stop it she knows this pisses me off and she does it as a joke.

The main voice who is the Joker from the Dark knight is the head of the people in my head that are made up of people that i know from my past in high school. they all take turns tormenting me one by one they tell me i need to be a man and that i was a punk bitch for not manning up to them. I tell them to meet me on the streets outside but the never show up. they remain in my head for the time being. the can manipulate my environment making me hallucinate using my 5 senses. they can talk to me telepathically and can hurt me physically.they want me to do endless push ups and bur-pees run around the block until they say they are tired so sit-ups drop out of school get rid of all my electronics and video games my iPhone my laptop my desktop my Nintendo switch. they want me to be broke and suffer
everyday the try to get me to get rid of my stuff drop out of school and put me through grueling boot camp exercises and then they say they will let me go but they never do.

They like to send me to jail so that they can torture me because i go to the psyche floor of the jail where i am in a single man cell for 23 hours a day and one hour out to take a shower.
they torment me in my cell to no end where no one can hear my cry and even if they do the jail guards don't do anything and on top of that what am i going to tell them? i hear voices? all they will do is tell the nurse to get me meds and that's it. this last time i went to jail they tortured me so much that i am afraid of ever going to jail again i was hallucinating like crazy. and lost my mine . Last episode i had the voices had my in the hospital i was screaming and yelling because i was having an extreme panic attack. and i am also claustrophobic and i could take being strapped down to a gurney with 4 point restraints do i couldn't move it was hell the worst experience that i have ever experienced in my life the whole time the voices where laughing at me a bitch and whatnot.

A while back in 2014 i was using crystal meth because i thought it would help me with my voices but it did the opposite i was hallucinating with the voices even more and i was so high i did something which badly injured me. Thanks to God i am still here today writing this story to you now.

All these things happened with me listening to the voices fighting the voices and going through life the best way i know how. The voices were behind me the whole time commenting on my actions and making fun of me and plotting to kill me. they are till here and there are many other things that they have done the ha either sent me to the hospital or jail. i stopped using Crystal meth 4 years ago and have cleaned up my life i quit using drugs smoking cigarettes and drinking alcohol. i even stopped watching sexually explicit movies since i am a christian. So i am doing all the right things but the voices persist. they are worse now than they have ever been and i am getting scared that they are going to try to do something again they seem to have power but i don't know they like that i am afraid i have tried everything so now im just getting into the Bible worshiping Jesus and holding on to him. there is no telling what the voices will do but i'm going to hold on i'm going to challenge them this week so if i m back on here tomorrow you will know that i am still alive. The voices also want me to harm myself ill take about that later thank you for your time.
dude i have kinda the same issue with these voices i know for fact what it is and where it comes from i am a muslim and in our religion there are these beings who live with us in this world they are called djinn and there are like 6 times more then humans are in this world they can read your mind and can even go deep in the past of your life and see and sense the things you lived but we humans are ranked over them they can just enter your life just how you let them enter your toughts so if you stay strong and have a good mindset they cant hurt you that much look up the storys of islam and christianity they add up together the islam is a follow up for christ becouse they changed alot of it you just have to research a bit and all will be clear to you i promise sadly there is evil (satan) and more in this world but there is also the good so dont give up on it and stay strong i also had my weak parts that how they came to me but now i am strong and he cant do much to me just to be clear you have just 1 being who is messing with you around he can switch voices how he wants and read your mind and these things are fast and in a way like electrons so smaller then a atom so you cant catch up with them just stay strong on your mind and be positive or neutral as you can and try to talk with them less as it gets and they will maybe get bored and go away from you sorry for my bad english i live in germany if you have anyone has questions you can PM me all time .

best regards
 
NM1

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dude i have kinda the same issue with these voices i know for fact what it is and where it comes from i am a muslim and in our religion there are these beings who live with us in this world they are called djinn and there are like 6 times more then humans are in this world they can read your mind and can even go deep in the past of your life and see and sense the things you lived but we humans are ranked over them they can just enter your life just how you let them enter your toughts so if you stay strong and have a good mindset they cant hurt you that much look up the storys of islam and christianity they add up together the islam is a follow up for christ becouse they changed alot of it you just have to research a bit and all will be clear to you i promise sadly there is evil (satan) and more in this world but there is also the good so dont give up on it and stay strong i also had my weak parts that how they came to me but now i am strong and he cant do much to me just to be clear you have just 1 being who is messing with you around he can switch voices how he wants and read your mind and these things are fast and in a way like electrons so smaller then a atom so you cant catch up with them just stay strong on your mind and be positive or neutral as you can and try to talk with them less as it gets and they will maybe get bored and go away from you sorry for my bad english i live in germany if you have anyone has questions you can PM me all time .

best regards
Thanks for your input yeah im from Seattle, WA and i don't know much about Djinns i've heard of them though do you think thats whats been causing me problems. a form of witchcraft?
 
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Thanks for your input yeah im from Seattle, WA and i don't know much about Djinns i've heard of them though do you think thats whats been causing me problems. a form of witchcraft?
its not really witchcraft these are being created from Allah / God who lived before humans at the Earth i dunno how they interact or choose people to mess with but i am 100% sure that it is comming from them .
 
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