
Bonnie23
Member
Hi I’m new to the forum and Iv currently just started Lamotrigine in November for suspected bipolar, was told by my psychiatrist if they work for me the diagnosis looks likely. Before I started Lamotrigine I was a complete mess
One minute Id feel slowed down, lethargic, feeling negative about everything,i feel so depressed I can’t see a way out. I seem to have so much hatred for my boyfriend during this time, I say the most nasty things, everything and everyone irritates me and I have a fiery temper in which I want to argue and fight and I dont consider the consequences at these moments I just do not care. I can’t control the urge to say the most awful things and shout at people. I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin and even my clothes really irritate me. I avoid people I know, I feel like I want to self harm and I have suicidal thoughts during this time too. I sleep a lot also.
Then all of a sudden I get a switch in mood which I am bright and cheery, thinking positive about everything, I love my boyfriend again, life is great and I’m excited to be alive, I am sociable and very chatty, my head feels like it’s fizzing and I have adrenaline pumping through me and I just feel alive, I have lots of creative ideas and I’m constantly cleaning and sorting things, I can’t sit still, I’m laughing and joking and also talking some jibberish at times, my thoughts are going so fast I can’t keep up with them and sometimes they don’t make sense it’s like their all muddled up, i have a very high sex drive during this mood and I’m less inhibited. Does this sound familiar to anyone? It’s like a constant cycle and it’s exhausting. However the lamotrigine has calmed both the highs and the lows to a point I can cope a bit better. Just wanted some advice and maybe someone to talk to?
One minute Id feel slowed down, lethargic, feeling negative about everything,i feel so depressed I can’t see a way out. I seem to have so much hatred for my boyfriend during this time, I say the most nasty things, everything and everyone irritates me and I have a fiery temper in which I want to argue and fight and I dont consider the consequences at these moments I just do not care. I can’t control the urge to say the most awful things and shout at people. I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin and even my clothes really irritate me. I avoid people I know, I feel like I want to self harm and I have suicidal thoughts during this time too. I sleep a lot also.
Then all of a sudden I get a switch in mood which I am bright and cheery, thinking positive about everything, I love my boyfriend again, life is great and I’m excited to be alive, I am sociable and very chatty, my head feels like it’s fizzing and I have adrenaline pumping through me and I just feel alive, I have lots of creative ideas and I’m constantly cleaning and sorting things, I can’t sit still, I’m laughing and joking and also talking some jibberish at times, my thoughts are going so fast I can’t keep up with them and sometimes they don’t make sense it’s like their all muddled up, i have a very high sex drive during this mood and I’m less inhibited. Does this sound familiar to anyone? It’s like a constant cycle and it’s exhausting. However the lamotrigine has calmed both the highs and the lows to a point I can cope a bit better. Just wanted some advice and maybe someone to talk to?