- Dec 21, 2020
- Los Angeles
I’m here for help. I found this forum, read a thread from 2014 and signed up. Depressed and I don’t take medication or see a therapist because I’m broke. Grew up with no love and it’s affected my whole life. I’m unemployed at home with mom (charity/pity) couple of married friends in other states. No girl no kids. I sit like a statue and feel bad all day. I get scared to sleep because I feel bad so much during the day and almost cry going to sleep that I think I’ll die and not wake up. I don’t have anything good about me to try to feel good about. My whole life feels like an intrusion and in promised my friend I wouldn’t Kill myself to leave. Now I feel like I’ve come here and made this place worse with my presence and “story”. I wanted to participate because you let me sign up. Thank you. I’ll be going now. Take care.