Hello everyone

[BornHated]

I’m here for help. I found this forum, read a thread from 2014 and signed up. Depressed and I don’t take medication or see a therapist because I’m broke. Grew up with no love and it’s affected my whole life. I’m unemployed at home with mom (charity/pity) couple of married friends in other states. No girl no kids. I sit like a statue and feel bad all day. I get scared to sleep because I feel bad so much during the day and almost cry going to sleep that I think I’ll die and not wake up. I don’t have anything good about me to try to feel good about. My whole life feels like an intrusion and in promised my friend I wouldn’t Kill myself to leave. Now I feel like I’ve come here and made this place worse with my presence and “story”. I wanted to participate because you let me sign up. Thank you. I’ll be going now. Take care.

 

[one light]

Hi welcome here...

 

[JessisMe]

Hello Born and welcome to the forums. You are very much wanted here and your story is similar to the stories of many among us. You should never feel bad about being honest about your struggles, we are all here to offer each other support. I am sorry that things have been so depressing lately. I am glad that you have a mother and st least one friend who can help. That’s a lot more than many people have. A lot of people are unemployed right now due to the pandemic and the job market isn’t great as a result. Are you hoping to get married and have children some day? That is certainly possible m. Especially for men they can make a child at almost any point in their life so you have plenty of time. Anyway we are glad that you signed up here snd hope you will keep contributing. We’re glad you found us. xo, j

 

[BornHated]

Your replies mean so much. Thank you! It appears I have found a good place.

 

[UpnDwn1978]

Hi BornHated welcome to the forum and MerryChristmas.

We're a great little community and we take care of each other I'm glad you decided to join . Take care and best wishes.

M

 

[R_Sxo]

Welcome! Let me know if you need any help getting around the forum <3

 

[Carl Melo]

Depressed and I don’t take medication or see a therapist because I’m broke. Grew up with no love and it’s affected my whole life. I’m unemployed at home with mom (charity/pity) couple of married friends in other states. No girl no kids. I sit like a statue and feel bad all day.

That's pretty much my situation as well. I feel like I'm even more stuck because I live in a fucking third world country that everybody seems to be happy with futile lives. But anyway, welcome to the forum, there are plenty of people here going through the same things right now.

 

[BornHated]

What’s wrong with me? Why do I struggle with the basics of life? I’m supposed to be “smart” but I can’t even maintain an apartment... keep a job long enough to get one. Why am I so bad at living?