When my voice gets too loud I sometimes shout at him. Maybe you could try that? Tell them how much you can't stand them and really have a go at them, sometimes it drives my voice away.
Hope you're ok
here he is then you have him the B
I dont f want him
so here I am and just take everything - I dont want it anymore
I want you to release this hold you have on me.
I want to let it all go, freefall - sigh I can feel the relief - I want to, I really want to let go - to feel the fall - to feel the sheer release and relief that would bring
Thankyou everyone for reading, listening, replying, helping. I feel so foolish really. I am very exhausted when I woke up but the voice is quieter now and I went swimming to make it a bit better, just for distraction and I have an appointment this afternoon with my psychologist. Perhaps I need to go back on respiridone
Or perhaps I will talk about it and see what else can be done - Its so very hard to distract myself, but I did do lots of things to try to and I am here still so that is something.
It did get very loud yesterday, it is hard - but lalalalala (Oops like a child) was handy.
I played games and talked online over the voice so that was good.
It is so draining though, anyway I am sure everyone appreciates that - but thanks so very much.