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Apotheosis
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Hello everyone
I was directed here from the "mad not bad" forum.
A bit about me -
I took drugs & drink from the age of 11 - 28, & I've been "clean" for over 6 years. I don't drink anything or take any drugs apart from meds. At 17 I had my first psychotic break, but it was after a long period of depression & problems. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 25 & I've been on anti psychotics ever since. I thought that when I stopped the drugs the MH "problems" would clear up - they didn't. My recent psychiatrist over the past couple of years thought I could have been suffering with manic depression, & more recently thought things were more in line with scizoaffective disorder. I do get prone to depression, especially in the winter months. I feel quite low at the moment.
I have tried stopping the meds 3 times in the last 10 years & I just get very ill. I don't like taking the tablets. I haven't worked in over 6 years & even longer without a full time job. I do try with college courses & also I find alternative healing beneficial, I am a fully qualified Reiki practitioner. But I have been without a regular girlfriend in along time, & I get lonely & feel hopeless sometimes.
It is hard living with label of an MH diagnosis. Just recently all I've wanted to do is to pour out my "problems". I have taken to thinking God is blame for my "Problems", which is a change from me blaming society. LOL.
I look forward to chatting to you sometime.
Paul
I was directed here from the "mad not bad" forum.
A bit about me -
I took drugs & drink from the age of 11 - 28, & I've been "clean" for over 6 years. I don't drink anything or take any drugs apart from meds. At 17 I had my first psychotic break, but it was after a long period of depression & problems. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at 25 & I've been on anti psychotics ever since. I thought that when I stopped the drugs the MH "problems" would clear up - they didn't. My recent psychiatrist over the past couple of years thought I could have been suffering with manic depression, & more recently thought things were more in line with scizoaffective disorder. I do get prone to depression, especially in the winter months. I feel quite low at the moment.
I have tried stopping the meds 3 times in the last 10 years & I just get very ill. I don't like taking the tablets. I haven't worked in over 6 years & even longer without a full time job. I do try with college courses & also I find alternative healing beneficial, I am a fully qualified Reiki practitioner. But I have been without a regular girlfriend in along time, & I get lonely & feel hopeless sometimes.
It is hard living with label of an MH diagnosis. Just recently all I've wanted to do is to pour out my "problems". I have taken to thinking God is blame for my "Problems", which is a change from me blaming society. LOL.
I look forward to chatting to you sometime.
Paul