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Vibranteyes

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Hello πŸ‘‹ I was thinking so hard about to write about my problems, because I'm so freaking introverted and I felt overwhelmed with my problems. So I finally went there to get help, some good advices for that how to deal with social anxiety, and how to not be an loser. So I'm gonna start writing about what happened in my life that caused my problems, I was bullied at the end of primary school and in middle school for my height and weight (I'm rather tall person and I'm still overweight), I never had a real friend, and I was always this weird, ugly target for bullies. I believed in that I'm ugly, and sometimes I feel urge to starve myself. Also I self harmed myself two times (one time while I was in middle school and high school) but I promised to myself that I'll never ever do this. I was also thinking about suicide, now I don't think about this constantly, but it comes back while I hear some bad words from somebody and while I'm thinking too much. Also I think I had few anxiety or panic attacks, my hands were trembling, my heart was beating so hard and I was probably panicking in my head. I'm also scared of somebody's opinion and I don't talk with relatives a lot, I don't do things that I like to do because I'm afraid of kind judgement and laughter in front of me. And I'm also scared to ask to tell my family that I want to go to the specialist, and this bothers me so much.
At the end I'm gonna say that English is not my first language (I'm from Europe) so I hope everything is understandable 😢 Thanks to everybody who will respond to my post, you're really great πŸ’–
 
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Jules5

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You are doing a pretty good job with English I understand exactly what you are going through and at such a young age, wow this certainly a sey up for low self esteem and what nots.


I am very tall and use to be too skinny now I am very tall and over weight. I an older 56. I was always made funny of for being too skinny with no boobs.
 
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Alladyn1919

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Hello πŸ‘‹ I was thinking so hard about to write about my problems, because I'm so freaking introverted and I felt overwhelmed with my problems. So I finally went there to get help, some good advices for that how to deal with social anxiety, and how to not be an loser. So I'm gonna start writing about what happened in my life that caused my problems, I was bullied at the end of primary school and in middle school for my height and weight (I'm rather tall person and I'm still overweight), I never had a real friend, and I was always this weird, ugly target for bullies. I believed in that I'm ugly, and sometimes I feel urge to starve myself. Also I self harmed myself two times (one time while I was in middle school and high school) but I promised to myself that I'll never ever do this. I was also thinking about suicide, now I don't think about this constantly, but it comes back while I hear some bad words from somebody and while I'm thinking too much. Also I think I had few anxiety or panic attacks, my hands were trembling, my heart was beating so hard and I was probably panicking in my head. I'm also scared of somebody's opinion and I don't talk with relatives a lot, I don't do things that I like to do because I'm afraid of kind judgement and laughter in front of me. And I'm also scared to ask to tell my family that I want to go to the specialist, and this bothers me so much.
At the end I'm gonna say that English is not my first language (I'm from Europe) so I hope everything is understandable 😢 Thanks to everybody who will respond to my post, you're really great πŸ’–
Nie wiem jaka terapia jest wlasciwa na twoj problem.Ale jezeli wybierasz sie z tym do specjalisty (rozumiem ze psychiatry lub psychologa)nie mow o tym nikomu o ile nie jest to absolutnie niezbedne z jakiegos powodu.Nie informuj o tym nawet najblizszej rodziny o ile to mozliwe.Jedz do specjalisty w innym miescie lub jezeli mieszkasz w duzym miescie to w odleglym miejscu.Jezeli stac cie na nierefundowana terapie to zapisz sie tam pod falszywym nazwiskiem (o ile to legalne, bo nie wiem, czy przynajmniej tolerowane przez prawo choc nie calkiem legalne, nie znam sie).Unikaj rozglosu co do leczenia sie psychiatrycznego czy chodzby psychologicznego jak to tylko mozliwe.Po (mam nadszieje udanej terapii) bedziesz w nieporownywalnie lepszej sytuacji jesli unikniesz rozglosu niz jezeli go nie unikniesz.
Natomiast jezeli w gre wchodzi tylko jawna terapia to nie wiem co lepsze.Nie daje zadnej rady.
 
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Ramson bangers

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Hi vibrant, your English is perfect.
Bullies can really affect someones mental health and self esteem. Hey i would consider using your strengths, have you tried weight lighting? Or martial arts.
I think if you find a platform you can really make an impact. Dont waste your potential you are blessed but your mind rejects it. Prove it wrong and each step of improvment will make you feel stronger. I can't tell you what it is, its up to you. But you can make a huge impact if you train yourself to think positively.
 
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Jules5

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Nie wiem jaka terapia jest wlasciwa na twoj problem.Ale jezeli wybierasz sie z tym do specjalisty (rozumiem ze psychiatry lub psychologa)nie mow o tym nikomu o ile nie jest to absolutnie niezbedne z jakiegos powodu.Nie informuj o tym nawet najblizszej rodziny o ile to mozliwe.Jedz do specjalisty w innym miescie lub jezeli mieszkasz w duzym miescie to w odleglym miejscu.Jezeli stac cie na nierefundowana terapie to zapisz sie tam pod falszywym nazwiskiem (o ile to legalne, bo nie wiem, czy przynajmniej tolerowane przez prawo choc nie calkiem legalne, nie znam sie).Unikaj rozglosu co do leczenia sie psychiatrycznego czy chodzby psychologicznego jak to tylko mozliwe.Po (mam nadszieje udanej terapii) bedziesz w nieporownywalnie lepszej sytuacji jesli unikniesz rozglosu niz jezeli go nie unikniesz.
Natomiast jezeli w gre wchodzi tylko jawna terapia to nie wiem co lepsze.Nie daje zadnej rady.
What a great response and reply
 
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Jules5

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After translating this I felt you are under served. I tell the police or anyone I am not right in the mind they can tell anyways. I think we may be free in the USA to be mentally handicapped we have allot of laws in place. We fight like hell to keep them but we fight we do not hide it. I am so sorry your country does not understand mental disability.

At one time I would have said yes HIDE but when you our really mentally defected it is hard to hide. I guess it is like dementia Gosh forbid if you get this illness it is all over but really it is not if you are in the right environment.
 
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Hi Vibrant and welcome to the forum, as the others have mentioned your English is really good!
Welcome again. :welcome:
 
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Hey, you're not alone in being bullied and thinking about yourself the way you do. When I was in school (elementary through high school), kids always picked on me for being short and overweight, for not having friends, and being super quiet all the time. It got to me back then, and while I never self harmed, I frequently had thoughts of my own death. I just thought of how nice it would be to be done with everything, but I often thought of what my family would be like if I died. That was heartbreaking, so I never even really thought about suicide. Besides that, I did truly hate how I looked, how I talked, how I thought...everything about myself.

But let me tell you something, you're not ugly. I mean, I have no idea what you look like, but I promise you, you look exactly as you should. If you're overweight, and you want to slim down, you can do that if you try hard enough, but there's nothing wrong with the way you look if you're overweight. It makes you who you are. If you looked like every other schmuck who picked on you, the world would be a boring place, you know?

For panic attacks, I've never had a full-on panic attack, but I did have heart PACs, which make your heart skip every 3rd beat or so. It can be caused by a multitude of things, but my doctor said it was mostly stress and anxiety (and way too much caffeine). He recommended that I stopped drinking energy drinks, that I avoided alcohol, and that I got plenty of exercise because it takes your mind off of things as well as relieves stress basically at its source. Since then, I've lost 101 pounds and I rarely feel stressed anymore (except recently because of a situation I'm dealing with T_T). My PACs are gone too.

Anyway, I don't know if anything I said helped, but sometimes you just need someone to talk to, too. If that's ever the case, I'm always willing to lend an ear (or eyes, since we're chatting on monitors).