- Feb 24, 2019
Hey all. I'm a highschool senior who has been struggling with a fear of ALS. I acknowledge that I have health anxiety, and have had fears like this in the past. This one feels different. It started with muscle facilitations. They came out of the blue. I wasn't fearing ALS before that. That's never happened before. Usually I'll see a disease and then the physical symptoms will set in. This time they came first which scared me. Of course I made the golden mistake, consulting Dr. Google. After I found out muscle facilitations were a symptom of ALS, my quality of life has rapidly deteriorated. The facillations are widespread, and now include some minor cramps.Also feel weaker, like i can't do things I normally could. Worrying about this has made me isolate, caused my grades to slip, and made me lose all of my motivation. Life seems pointless if I have ALS. It's hard to convince myself I don't have It when it really feels like I do. My mom doesn't want to take me to a GP as we don't have insurance and we can't really stomach the cost right now. I'm sure she'd budge if i told her I really need to consult a medical professional. I know this isn't a substitute for a therapist. I've been speaking to mine but it hasn't been enough. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you! Quick recap: The facilitationsare widespread, and somewhat intense. They don't prevent sleep or impact me too much. Some minor cramps here and there. Feeling sorta weak. Can't tell if it's perceived or not. I've been looking for muscle waste but I can't tell if there is any. I know ALS is very rare especially at my age. But my brain won't listen to any kind of reasoning.