Health Anxiety is ruining my life. (ALS?)

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AnthonyFuso

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Hey all. I'm a highschool senior who has been struggling with a fear of ALS. I acknowledge that I have health anxiety, and have had fears like this in the past. This one feels different. It started with muscle facilitations. They came out of the blue. I wasn't fearing ALS before that. That's never happened before. Usually I'll see a disease and then the physical symptoms will set in. This time they came first which scared me. Of course I made the golden mistake, consulting Dr. Google. After I found out muscle facilitations were a symptom of ALS, my quality of life has rapidly deteriorated. The facillations are widespread, and now include some minor cramps.Also feel weaker, like i can't do things I normally could. Worrying about this has made me isolate, caused my grades to slip, and made me lose all of my motivation. Life seems pointless if I have ALS. It's hard to convince myself I don't have It when it really feels like I do. My mom doesn't want to take me to a GP as we don't have insurance and we can't really stomach the cost right now. I'm sure she'd budge if i told her I really need to consult a medical professional. I know this isn't a substitute for a therapist. I've been speaking to mine but it hasn't been enough. Any advice would be much appreciated. Thank you! Quick recap: The facilitationsare widespread, and somewhat intense. They don't prevent sleep or impact me too much. Some minor cramps here and there. Feeling sorta weak. Can't tell if it's perceived or not. I've been looking for muscle waste but I can't tell if there is any. I know ALS is very rare especially at my age. But my brain won't listen to any kind of reasoning.
 
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Your Mom's probably right, a doctor can't reassure you, seems like you're looking for reassurance, googling, but you have to somehow reassure yourself, you're making a classic anxiety mistake (researching on google, or any research), that's something you need to stop doing, how about looking at YouTube documentaries instead, finding something you could be interested in? I'm sorry anxiety is affecting you so young, my problems didn't start until 25.

You know consciously that it isn't right, but there is your subconscious mind that can dominate conscious rational thinking & behaviour, & you need to somehow consciously dominate that irrational thinking with intense conscious positive thinking & rational behaviour ie. stop googling, not straight away, just slowly maybe 5 mins less each day.
 
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AnthonyFuso

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Your Mom's probably right, a doctor can't reassure you, seems like you're looking for reassurance, googling, but you have to somehow reassure yourself, you're making a classic anxiety mistake (researching on google, or any research), that's something you need to stop doing, how about looking at YouTube documentaries instead, finding something you could be interested in? I'm sorry anxiety is affecting you so young, my problems didn't start until 25.

You know consciously that it isn't right, but there is your subconscious mind that can dominate conscious rational thinking & behaviour, & you need to somehow consciously dominate that irrational thinking with intense conscious positive thinking & rational behaviour ie. stop googling, not straight away, just slowly maybe 5 mins less each day.
Thank you for responding. I know it's not right, It's just hard to convince myself of it when the physical symptoms are there. My muscles are facilitating and it's scaring me. If only those would go away, I'd have a much easier time convincing myself I'm ok. I try to tell myself I'm ok but there's always that little part of me that say's "But what if you aren't?". I can't seem to get past it.
 
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Me too bro, I’m in your exact position. Als is scaring me to death and ever since I discovered it I’ve felt more symptoms it is so deteriorating on your mental health it consumes my thoughts 24/7