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I called my psychiatrist on Tuesday as I was feeling suicidal. His response was to take a diazepam and call a helpline if I didn’t feel better. Obviously this didn’t help so I ended up taking an overdose. After taking the OD I left the house with only my ID, and a suicide note. I collapsed in the street and a member of the public called an ambulance. I remember none of this. Whilst in hospital I was hallucinating and only remember some fragments of being there. I know I didn’t receive any fluids or nutrition for almost 24 hours, and I was left to lay in my own urine as I wasn’t aware or alert enough to go to the toilet. I couldn’t even stand by myself as I was too unsteady. Apparently psych came to see me but I wouldn’t speak to them, even if I did want to I wasn’t making any sense. I phoned someone to pick me up (not that i remember doing so), and they actually phoned the ward to ensure that I was discharges and that I hadn’t just left as I was still totally confused. They also wouldn’t give me my suicide note back which is so personal.
sorry for the long post, I just don’t feel I have anywhere to turn anymore.
sorry for the long post, I just don’t feel I have anywhere to turn anymore.