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MarlieeB

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I've gone into overdrive.

All I'm doing from the moment I wake to the moment I finally go to sleep everyday is having to distract myself.

The moment I stop doing something, even just watching the Television all kinds of thoughts start flowing through my head.

It's been three days now but I can't stop it.

I am making so much effort to not hurt myself as I know that is only a temporary release but the temptation is getting stronger and stronger and I don't know how much longer I can distract myself for.

My heart wonders whether to do just a tiny thing to see whether it would help.

But

My head knows that it is likely that it wouldn't be little.

I'm usually a person who goes with their head but sometimes the heart makes the better decisions.
 
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i hope you can continue to distract yourself and dont harm yourself.
 

MarlieeB

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Have something.

I'm doing something but it won't leave anything with it but still stings for a tiny bit.
 
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It's a slippery slope hun please try and be safe. Thinking of you :hug5: xxx
 

MarlieeB

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Was hoping for someone to talk to but it seems that there's no one at the moment.

I know it's selfish when so many of you are struggling but yeah....
 
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Hope you can keep distracting yourself and keep safe Marliee. :hug:

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You can talk to me if you like I'm not going to bed just yet as having a cuppa. :hug: xx
 
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I'm sorry you're struggling Marliee. Sounds like these feelings are non-stop. :hug1:

It's very difficult when you're tempted. It's like a part of you knows it's not worth it, but the part that's suffering doesn't care and will try anything to feel better.:unsure:

It's probably my numb-brain, but I can't quite fathom if you've done something or not. If you have, please make sure to keep everything clean and safe.
 

MarlieeB

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I haven't yet. I'm trying not to undo all this time spent not doing anything.

I also have a work thing next saturday so no fresh ones need to appear xxx
 
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That at least gives you a real reason for not doing anything. Please hang on in there hun. :hug:
 

MarlieeB

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And the same thing is happening again, it's every time I post that I'm struggling.

I need to stop posting now, not cause I don't want to talk and post, I really do. I just can't :(
 
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Not in my line of experience Marliee...but hoping that you keep safe and sending love
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