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Kratos_and_boi
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So I'm having really awful problems with depression and anxiety during the last 2 or 3 years and i have been diagnosed with mixed depression and anxiety but the treatments with medication aren't really making me fell better.
So let's start with how I first contacted my doctor, I may or may not write the whole story right now because I'm not feeling really well at this moment and even steuggling to write this:
I first contacted my doctor somewhere around 2 or 3 years ago because i had trouble sleeping and i had heart palpitations which scared me. I don't know exactly when but my doctor prescribed me benzodizepines: at first diazepam then alprazolam after a while, I can't really remember the exact orders. Somewhere during this time my doctor sent me to make an ekg which of course was fine, after a while i had an portable ekg for 24 hours and this turned out fine besides my heart rate climbing to more then 150bpm while taking 3 levels worth of stairs to the cardiologist. After a while i did a monitored stress test on a treadmill which they told me was fine and they ruled out the heart. I think this was during the first or second year of studying mechanical engineering.
After everything my doctor sent me naturally to an psychiatrist who diagnosed me with mixed depression and anxiety and prescribed me with escitalopram if i recall correctly. I continued taking like 5mg of diazepam 2 times a day which i use to this day by need some day nothing, some day 15mg. I had the alprazolam taken away. As the escitalopram was an ssri i got in a really good mood but i had some (word which I can't remeber for unwanted symptoms) and I told my doctor i had these so she told me to take half the dosis. I was feeling very happy during like 3 weeks while taking escitalopram but feeling sleepy all day then i had an appointment at the psychologist and when i told her the unwanted symptoms she changed my medication to brintellix(trintellix-vortioxetinum) i was taking 2mg during a month or so but with no success so when i had my next appointment she upped my dose to 5mg which made me feel worse. I know it was like december and during december and january i stopped taking all medication because it wasn't helping. After like 3 weeks of not taking any medication I had my first really bad panic attack, i litteraly thought i was dying and had no diezapam left so i took my mothers oxazepam which after some while calmed me down. I reported this to my doctor and started taking diazepam again. I changed my psychiatrist because i could not get an appointment at the old one and I also got to an psychologist. I think before that I visited an neurologist who sent me to make an eeg, brain mri, some blood screens because I noticed my brain performance started decreasing and also sent me to make that psychologist appointment. Well at the physical side everything came back normal. some time after that i got to the new psychologist and changed my medication to pregabalin and vortioxetinum remained, diazepam also. Vortioxetinum did nothing good so after a while she changed it to trittico which is trozodonchloride i felt wery very bad while using this medication and iit worsened my sleep so she canceled it. For a while i have been using only pregabaling and diazepam but my condition was not perfect so she gave me vortioxetinum but i told her i would like to try again with escitalopram but she did not want to give me that. I then started taking vortioxetinum for a few weeks but i stopped because it was making me sick. The corona situation made things only worse. I take now only pregabalin before sleep and diazepam when feeling some discomfort or having panic attack. The panic attacks are getting worse and worse and the occurences are almost daily, the medicine i have sometimes doesn't even help to stop the panic attack.
I see the story is getting really long so i might not finiish it right now.
So let's start with how I first contacted my doctor, I may or may not write the whole story right now because I'm not feeling really well at this moment and even steuggling to write this:
I first contacted my doctor somewhere around 2 or 3 years ago because i had trouble sleeping and i had heart palpitations which scared me. I don't know exactly when but my doctor prescribed me benzodizepines: at first diazepam then alprazolam after a while, I can't really remember the exact orders. Somewhere during this time my doctor sent me to make an ekg which of course was fine, after a while i had an portable ekg for 24 hours and this turned out fine besides my heart rate climbing to more then 150bpm while taking 3 levels worth of stairs to the cardiologist. After a while i did a monitored stress test on a treadmill which they told me was fine and they ruled out the heart. I think this was during the first or second year of studying mechanical engineering.
After everything my doctor sent me naturally to an psychiatrist who diagnosed me with mixed depression and anxiety and prescribed me with escitalopram if i recall correctly. I continued taking like 5mg of diazepam 2 times a day which i use to this day by need some day nothing, some day 15mg. I had the alprazolam taken away. As the escitalopram was an ssri i got in a really good mood but i had some (word which I can't remeber for unwanted symptoms) and I told my doctor i had these so she told me to take half the dosis. I was feeling very happy during like 3 weeks while taking escitalopram but feeling sleepy all day then i had an appointment at the psychologist and when i told her the unwanted symptoms she changed my medication to brintellix(trintellix-vortioxetinum) i was taking 2mg during a month or so but with no success so when i had my next appointment she upped my dose to 5mg which made me feel worse. I know it was like december and during december and january i stopped taking all medication because it wasn't helping. After like 3 weeks of not taking any medication I had my first really bad panic attack, i litteraly thought i was dying and had no diezapam left so i took my mothers oxazepam which after some while calmed me down. I reported this to my doctor and started taking diazepam again. I changed my psychiatrist because i could not get an appointment at the old one and I also got to an psychologist. I think before that I visited an neurologist who sent me to make an eeg, brain mri, some blood screens because I noticed my brain performance started decreasing and also sent me to make that psychologist appointment. Well at the physical side everything came back normal. some time after that i got to the new psychologist and changed my medication to pregabalin and vortioxetinum remained, diazepam also. Vortioxetinum did nothing good so after a while she changed it to trittico which is trozodonchloride i felt wery very bad while using this medication and iit worsened my sleep so she canceled it. For a while i have been using only pregabaling and diazepam but my condition was not perfect so she gave me vortioxetinum but i told her i would like to try again with escitalopram but she did not want to give me that. I then started taking vortioxetinum for a few weeks but i stopped because it was making me sick. The corona situation made things only worse. I take now only pregabalin before sleep and diazepam when feeling some discomfort or having panic attack. The panic attacks are getting worse and worse and the occurences are almost daily, the medicine i have sometimes doesn't even help to stop the panic attack.
I see the story is getting really long so i might not finiish it right now.