- Oct 28, 2019
Ive been having a rough time because I feel like my friends are all moving on without me and leaving me behind. It all started when I saw a picture of my two bestfriends (J and E)hanging out at a haunted house on facebook. Thats something we used to do together but ever since J got a bf I haven’t been invited to hang out with them as much. They hang out without me because J’s bf and I dated for 3 months. J starts dating my ex and now I cant see her as much because he cant be around me. And Im trying to be supportive because im happy for her but it sucks. We dont even talk anymore because she’s always so busy. Then she gets engaged and she chooses E to be her maid of honor instead of me. She has her reasons but it still hurts. Then she tells me her and E are much closer as friends then we are. So now I feel like I don’t even have any close friends anymore. I thought J and I were like sisters, she’s been my best friend for over 10 years then she gets a bf and we grow apart and she replaces me just like that and doesn't even miss me. And ive got nothing else good in my life. Im still as alone as I’ve always been, I work less then 10 hours a week at my job so I barely have any money and now I dont even have close friends. It’s making me depressed and want to SH and even kms and I feel like no one would even care. I feel better letting it all out because I dont have anyone else to talk to about this but sorry for ranting.