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Having a rough time

letmein

letmein

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i am scum

i hate me

my ex hates me

she sends me a photo message today of her happy family. I'm now an outcast.


please god call my number.
 
GaryC123

GaryC123

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Hang in there, letmein. We've all done stupid stuff and paid for it. Or sometimes we don't do stupid stuff and STILL pay for it. Some of us just have a shittier life than others. All we can do is keep going. And the really fun thing is, it can always be worse. The world is full of even worse things that can happen to us. I have to be thankful that I'm only miserable. I've never had a relationship in my entire life, save a two or three month flash-in-the-pan a few years back. To be honest, every time I've ever met someone that I really cared about and really wanted to be with, it has ALWAYS turned out badly, for me, and when I look back, it is ALWAYS my own stupidity that does me in. Everyone else around me seems to win and end up with each other, except for me. I get left out.

But I hope God doesn't call your number. Us lonely folk need each other because it's really all we have sometimes. Otherwise on one will respond to our lonely cries on this message board.
 
GaryC123

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I should add that, unless it's God calling to tell you he loves you, then I hope God doesn't "call your number".
 
letmein

letmein

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hello folks..

just wanted to check in..... its been a hard few days again this end..

I am trying my best not to react.

hows every one?
 
letmein

letmein

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hello folks, thought i'd let you know where i'm at... another few roughish days.. can't shift a lot of thoughts about "my exit" plan... I have set a new date for it. I'm giving myself a fighting chance. Its many weeks away. I aim to try and lose some weight. deal with a major personal issue. get my health looked at.

if things go well I will reset that date, if not its a choice I have made and what I want.
 
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midnightphoenix

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hello folks, thought i'd let you know where i'm at... another few roughish days.. can't shift a lot of thoughts about "my exit" plan... I have set a new date for it. I'm giving myself a fighting chance. Its many weeks away. I aim to try and lose some weight. deal with a major personal issue. get my health looked at.

if things go well I will reset that date, if not its a choice I have made and what I want.
I hope you choose to stay :hug:
 
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GaryC123

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I hope things get better for you, letmein. Even if it takes more than x number of weeks, just give it time. I don't know your reasons for feeling the way you do, however, I think there are very, VERY few things in this world that are so extraordinarily reprehensible that we ought to destroy ourselves over them. Sometimes it just takes time to atone for the past and overcome our mistakes. None of us are perfect, far from it in fact. I've been there too (still am in many ways). We live and learn.
 
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