- Oct 19, 2020
- United Kingdom
So I posted on here about a week ago regarding a guy I was sort of seeing who ended up breaking my heart. We had words and I decided that what I needed was some space, and so we pretty much cut contact for a little while. He messaged me on Tuesday asking if I was okay and telling me how much he appreciated me. I pretty much ignored it because at the time I was still very angry and hurt, however I saw him out on Saturday night (complete coincidence) and it brought back all those emotions that I thought I'd got past. The anger quickly turned to sadness and I've not been right since. We didn't speak that night but we definitely made a lot of eye contact, and now I've reached that point where I've really started to miss him. Not even necessarily in the romantic sense, but I miss having him to talk to every day and being a friend. I wish that night between us had never happened because now I feel awful in every sense of the word. I know in reality he isn't the best person and I know I can probably do better, but he's always on my mind and as cliché as it sounds he always appears in my dreams (usually in a bad way). It's all still very raw at the moment and I was finally able to open up to my therapist which definitely helped, but I just wondered if anyone here has any advice on how to deal with heartache/breakups? I know it's technically not a breakup but it certainly feels like one. I just feel so lonely and hurt by everything.