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bluebell24
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Morning everyone,
I've been steadily feeling more positive over the past couple of weeks but today I have woken up full of doom and gloom and scared and confused.
I had a job interview yesterday, my first since being made redundant 3 months ago. I think it went well, I felt happy, confident and comfortable during it but I think it's brought a lot of self-doubt back to the forefront of my mind. My husband and I have been thinking about relocating for years and about 6 weeks ago we decided to grab the opportunity to do it and the interview I had is for a job in the area we want to move to. This morning I feel positively terrified and unsure whether it's the right thing to do. I realise that it's not the greatest idea to make major life decisions in the midst of a servere bout of depression and rationally I know it would be a scary decision at the best of times.
There just seems to be so much to content with at the moment ... having no job has made me feel really bad about myself, as has losing a close friendship, facing up to some of the bad things I did when I thought I was feeling great last year. I know there are ups and downs in recovering from, well the ups and downs but today it seems a bit too much. I'm not the most patient person in the world so I feel frustrated that I'm feeling bad again when I desperately want to get better. And feeling bad for being up to to doing pitifully little while I'm not working.
I don't really know what I'm saying today : ). I know no-one can give me answers re: whether making a move is the right thing to do. Just wondered if anyone esle has made major changes in life when not completely well, and how and tips for dealing with the sudden shift into reverse gear. It sucks!
I've been steadily feeling more positive over the past couple of weeks but today I have woken up full of doom and gloom and scared and confused.
I had a job interview yesterday, my first since being made redundant 3 months ago. I think it went well, I felt happy, confident and comfortable during it but I think it's brought a lot of self-doubt back to the forefront of my mind. My husband and I have been thinking about relocating for years and about 6 weeks ago we decided to grab the opportunity to do it and the interview I had is for a job in the area we want to move to. This morning I feel positively terrified and unsure whether it's the right thing to do. I realise that it's not the greatest idea to make major life decisions in the midst of a servere bout of depression and rationally I know it would be a scary decision at the best of times.
There just seems to be so much to content with at the moment ... having no job has made me feel really bad about myself, as has losing a close friendship, facing up to some of the bad things I did when I thought I was feeling great last year. I know there are ups and downs in recovering from, well the ups and downs but today it seems a bit too much. I'm not the most patient person in the world so I feel frustrated that I'm feeling bad again when I desperately want to get better. And feeling bad for being up to to doing pitifully little while I'm not working.
I don't really know what I'm saying today : ). I know no-one can give me answers re: whether making a move is the right thing to do. Just wondered if anyone esle has made major changes in life when not completely well, and how and tips for dealing with the sudden shift into reverse gear. It sucks!