• Share. Be Supported. Recover.

    We are a friendly, safe community supporting each other's mental health. We are open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year.

Have you ever tried to trigger a manic episode? Or tried to live with a bit of instability for creatuve

ara13

ara13

Active member
Joined
Mar 8, 2020
Messages
44
Location
USA
So I was feeling really stale for about a month and couldn’t find a drive to do anything especially creative things which is very unusual for me. But I wasn’t depressed.

It got so bland and boring I decided to throw caution to the wind because even a mood episode would be better than nothing.


my idea of attempting to trigger a hypomanic episode hasn’t really worked, I’ve had small periods of manic inspiration but I’m still super tired and have been sleeping regularly. I have felt my manic personality begin to shine through a little, but I’m able to keep it in control. Is it possible to just... keep living like this? Has anyone else figured out a way to keep some of their manic creativity without sacrificing their relationships and finances? I’d rather be slightly unstable than not be creative, even if that does mean depression sometimes. I’ve been really adamant about identifying the manic behavior like urges to text random people or make extravagant plans and haven’t been overspending at all, so I don’t see a danger to being this way.
 
D

Dice

Well-known member
Joined
Jan 20, 2019
Messages
88
Location
UK
I imagine it would be possible to - shall we say - 'encourage' an episode by way of certain unhealthy lifestyle choices and so forth, but I don't think it'd be a good idea to do so because you don't know what beast you'd wake up. If you think about previous episodes and how they may have come on out of the blue, or by certain events, then think about actually forcing it intentionally...I don't know, it just feels like it could be quite dangerous to me. I get your frustration though, because I too have lost some spark since being on meds, but I'd definitely prefer that to being actively suicidal, not just for me, but for those it would effect, which is something we should always keep in mind. Be sensible, this thing isn't to be messed with.

Maybe instead of hoping for a manic inspiration you could try and trigger things by looking into more of the things that you do. If it's paintings then study certain painters that you've not done so before etc. Hopefully that could light a spark within you.
 
ara13

ara13

Active member
Joined
Mar 8, 2020
Messages
44
Location
USA
Yea I totally agree, thanks for saying that. One of the things I’ve been doing to resist the temptations of mania has been to make lists of the horrible choices and situations I got myself into when I was manic. It can be a really dark place to go but it sort of tethers me to reality. I do believe that I have some control over episodes, especially manic ones if I use skills I’ve learned to prevent them before they get too bad.

I can usually spot a manic episode from a mile away but depression tends to sneak up on me haha.
Have you found any ways to counteract the lack of that artistic “spark”? That’s a really great idea to look into outside things that inspire me, thank you.
 
K

Kiingyee

Well-known member
Joined
Mar 25, 2020
Messages
159
Location
USA
oh yeah, plenty of times. Unhealthy though.
 
B

Berg

Well-known member
Joined
Mar 10, 2020
Messages
47
Location
UK
I used to but manic episodes for me are abrupt and quick so once it happens there's very little control I have. It's like being on a rollercoaster that just won't stop.

I also don't really experience 'euphoric' mania for long. It always starts that way but very quickly leads to irritability and that's pretty much the whole episode, so may be unusual to say but it's actually never fun at all.
 
Similar threads
Thread starter Title Forum Replies Date
J Does vrylar agitation ever go away Bipolar Forum 2
G Has anyone ever heard of this? Bipolar Forum 3
N Friendships lost, friendship ever again? Bipolar Forum 2
S Has anyone ever changed from lithium to a different mood stabiliser? Bipolar Forum 14
M Will life ever feel worth living? Is there hope? Bipolar Forum 5
H About to taper lithium and scared! Anyone ever switch from ER to instant? Bipolar Forum 4
H Anyone ever lower or taper lithium without issues?? Bipolar Forum 1
Jess96 Kill me now will this ever get better Bipolar Forum 9
M I feel better than ever!! Bipolar Forum 3
H Crumbling ever so slowly Bipolar Forum 8
M Have you ever consider Bipolar Forum 3
Ender Do you ever get mixed states? Bipolar Forum 4
K Depression, psychosis and lack of memory. Have you ever experienced this? Bipolar Forum 4
A Diagnosed with bipolar II recently(had the wrong diagnosis), will it ever get better? I feel lost Bipolar Forum 2
E Have you ever been broken up with due to your bipolar disorder? Bipolar Forum 11
Russet Was i ever so happy Bipolar Forum 1
K Have you ever heard of something like this? Bipolar Forum 2
F What is the longest manic/hypomanic espisode you ever had? Bipolar Forum 7
I What would your final ever, ever, thread be on a bipolar forum ? Bipolar Forum 25
I Will i ever feel better? Bipolar Forum 9
Not_Crazy_Yet Do you ever feel like a reject when you're cycling? Bipolar Forum 5
Tw723 Ever just feel... Bipolar Forum 6
dubblemonkey I know my ever self is involved in some-other unsympathetic event...! Bipolar Forum 2
S Does the medication song and dance ever end? Bipolar Forum 6
M Worst drug you've ever been on? Bipolar Forum 12
loulabelle will i ever be free Bipolar Forum 13
L Nothing good ever happens after 2am! Bipolar Forum 6
Reach Can Bipolar 2's ever go without meds? Bipolar Forum 38
prairiechick Does this abilify irritability ever go away? Bipolar Forum 5
I Have you ever lacked capacity? Bipolar Forum 1
S Feeling depressed and lonely as ever and dreaming of getting piss drunk to drown my sorrows. Bipolar Forum 3
R worst psydoc EVER?? Bipolar Forum 8
loulabelle Will i ever be fully stable ? Is this the way it will always be ? Bipolar Forum 2
P Feel worse than ever Bipolar Forum 3
K Have any of you ever had a bad or significant head injury? Bipolar Forum 23
Davey Blueeyes 'The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face' Bipolar Forum 172
bobshocker Ever feel like you don't belong? Like Alienated, disapproved of, even scorned. Bipolar Forum 4
H Ever wish u was anybody but u....??? Bipolar Forum 13
bobshocker Anyone ever taken out an iva Bipolar Forum 4
TheSilence Do you ever feel like... Bipolar Forum 3
S Anyone else ever feel like this? Bipolar Forum 2
G Have you ever seen MANIA portrayed convincingly on film or TV? IF SO WHERE? Bipolar Forum 10
G Do you ever get episodes with multiple peaks or troughs? Bipolar Forum 11
Nooma42 Worst NYE ever Bipolar Forum 13
L Just been writing - Willl i ever be good enough ? ED based. Bipolar Forum 9
bobshocker what ever makes you happy. Bipolar Forum 4
L A poem . x Bipolars all ill ever be realy Bipolar Forum 1
mrlaurel have you ever given another person too much ? Bipolar Forum 8
I Do you ever feel like your going to lose it any minute? Bipolar Forum 2
W Is it ever going to stop raining? Bipolar Forum 3

Similar threads

Top