I literally hate myself. I wanted to kill myself but couldn't because I have 2 kids & couldn't leave them to dads who do absolutely nothing for them & yet think they do everything. It makes me furious. They don't financially or emotionaly support them. My son has autism, so I'm constantly worrying about him & his future. I tried therapy & was told I need to give my kids up & go to church. Um, no & no! My life is my kids & that's the only reason I'm alive & no thanks on the church because I don't believe in that stuff. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm on anxiety meds & still don't want to leave my house. Anyone have some insight?