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Amber1964

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Been having flashbacks and nightmares. New bad memories. I'm such a bad digesting monster all the bad things that happened is my fault and I deserved it. Having some urges to self harm. I need to be punished.
 
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Fairy Lucretia

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nothing is your fault ,you do not deserve to be hurt
please don't hurt yourself ,try distracting with doing something nice for yourself
you don't deserve to be in either physical or emotional pain xxx
 
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Mayflower7

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Hi,
Sorry you are struggling
Are you receiving any help?
Please don't punish yourself
Take care
 
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Amber1964

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I have a appointment with my therapist today. I just feel so yucky. I do have some self helps I use. Like reading, coloring, stuff like that. My abusers always told me so many hurtful things.
 
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Amber1964

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I really feel like I'm a evil ugly monster. But I promise not to self harmed. The urges are strong. Is it ok to keep sharing and talking?
 
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