Hate feeling like this.

[TRjames]

A little about myself I suffer from genralised anxiety disorder, depression, derealisation and i have just recently been told that i may have phsycosis. I woke up this morning feeling so numb so so so shit and im starting to get thoughts of death, not sure if this means anything but right now if i think about dying it does not bother me at all. I have never been suicidal or self harmed but the thought of cutting my self and hurting my self keeps running through my head.

what is happening to me...........

 

[TRjames]

i hope i have not offended anyone, no one seems to reply to me

 

[Ainsworth]

i hope i have not offended anyone, no one seems to reply to me

of course you havent offended anyone, welcome to the forum

have you told your doctor about the thoughts you are having about death?

takecare

 

[jamesdean]

Hi trjames has unremarakable says you havent offened no one it must of been a quiet day here take care JD

 

[starfish]

dolores

hello, from someone in England! i am afaid to say that i have the same thoughts and feelings as you. itoo have GAD plus other types of anxiety and OCD and depression. you are not alone. i dont know what health/medical system you have in Australia but in england it is very patchy. i have thoughts of death and think it would be a good way out ,but having a loving family stops me. i have self harmed cuts and scratches to my arms and probably shouldnt say this but have gainedrelief from doing it.if you can avoid hurting yourself it would be better in the long run.talking to health professionals i think would be the best way forward for you, in my oppinion. take care.

 

[just.me]

I think when the depression hits, and we are on a low cycle, we all think that we would be better off dead, the fact that we would'nt actually do it does not come into it.

Depression is like a big black hole when it is bad you are at the bottom and there is no one to help you up, no ladder to climb to see the light.

When you actually start buying the pills, looking for rope is the time to talk to your medical professional about it, because obviously the meds are not working.

 

[sweetabby]

It really happens. But it will pass. What matters is what you do about it and taking care of yourself until it does. Time is a wonderful healer.