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suki1066
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hello all
i have over the years been on ads for periods of time, im now 44 and after 15 years gone back on them in August last year. This was after trying to cope with several situations for a long while and realising from past experiences i needed some extra help. I went to relate, thank god i could aford to pay and get to talk to someone as soon as i realised i needed some help, the wait for others and myself in the past is awfull. the question i have is that at night time when i shut my eyes in bed i was seeing horrible faces which came towards me and mutated, it is very frightening, it feels as though i am looking at the faces from eyes open in my forhead, or minds eye.
i was self medicating on wine to knock myself out so i wouldnt have to have this every night, therefor had a hangover every day, plus the stress the next evening knowing what was coming. i have a busy job, stress can sometimes be high,
this has now passed to some degree, i have " talked to the faces" and told them to go away etc. and try to thiink of happy things, to control my own mind if you will.
my life is somewhat coming together again and now i feel alot more positive i feel able to ask if anyone else has had this sort of experience i didnt tell anyone as i thourght i was mad!!! yep i know i was depressed but ive never experienced anything like it. it lasted for 8 months or so.
i like to try and analise and find reasons for feelings/thourght for "next "time
sorry for the long post xx
i have over the years been on ads for periods of time, im now 44 and after 15 years gone back on them in August last year. This was after trying to cope with several situations for a long while and realising from past experiences i needed some extra help. I went to relate, thank god i could aford to pay and get to talk to someone as soon as i realised i needed some help, the wait for others and myself in the past is awfull. the question i have is that at night time when i shut my eyes in bed i was seeing horrible faces which came towards me and mutated, it is very frightening, it feels as though i am looking at the faces from eyes open in my forhead, or minds eye.
i was self medicating on wine to knock myself out so i wouldnt have to have this every night, therefor had a hangover every day, plus the stress the next evening knowing what was coming. i have a busy job, stress can sometimes be high,
this has now passed to some degree, i have " talked to the faces" and told them to go away etc. and try to thiink of happy things, to control my own mind if you will.
my life is somewhat coming together again and now i feel alot more positive i feel able to ask if anyone else has had this sort of experience i didnt tell anyone as i thourght i was mad!!! yep i know i was depressed but ive never experienced anything like it. it lasted for 8 months or so.
i like to try and analise and find reasons for feelings/thourght for "next "time
sorry for the long post xx