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Has anyone else lost everything they worked so hard for their whole life due to psychosis?

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Blyss

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Has anyone else lost everything they worked so hard for their whole life due to psychosis?

Hello and thanks for reading a new members post!

About 5 years ago I was in the beginning stages of psychosis, which ended up being full blown psychosis with hallucinations and delusions that only ended a couple years back. I have not had a reoccurrence since, nor do I worry of one.

Problem today is, over the course of this downward spiral, I hit rock bottom. I lost everything. My home, cars, credit-went bankrupt, lost my spouse of 20 years. Everything I worked so hard for melted away.

I feel today that I am at the bottom of a very tall ladder and need to rebuild. I struggle with where I am at in my life. Blame myself for not being stronger, and my self esteem is shattered. I have few friends and no family. Everything has been lost and I feel I don't have the strength to rebuild from such a low point when back then, I had it all.

Also, I would like to note that 5 years ago when this all started I fell into a relationship after my divorce. It was not a good one. I missed the red flags back then and I sort of fell into an emotionally abusive relationship. This relationship has also contributed to my self esteem issues but he was something to hold onto I guess. Held on for 5 years and it just ended last month.

Today, I find myself alone, with nothing. (I do have a great job that I am thankful for), but not much else. Finding this all a very hard pill to swallow and feeling like I should have been stronger and should have been able to prevent it all from happening.

Very unhappy with where I am in my life and feeling Ive not the strength to rebuild from here at 41 years old.
 
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Hello and welcome,

I'm sorry you've gone through this but please try to stop blaming yourself. You have been unwell, it is nothing that you did or didn't do that caused it, it is not your fault. I am sorry that your friends did not stick around. It sounds to me like you need to grieve for you past life and what you lost. It is hard to rebuild a life but it is possible. I can understand what you mean about not having the strength to start again. Maybe you won't get back exactly what you had before, but you can build a life worth living and you do deserve one. You have a good job you say, that is a start. It is not easy but can be done, bit by bit.

I hope you find it helpful being on here, this is a supportive place and I'm sure you'll soon make friends on here.
 
BillFish

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Hello and thanks for reading a new members post!

About 5 years ago I was in the beginning stages of psychosis, which ended up being full blown psychosis with hallucinations and delusions that only ended a couple years back. I have not had a reoccurrence since, nor do I worry of one.

Problem today is, over the course of this downward spiral, I hit rock bottom. I lost everything. My home, cars, credit-went bankrupt, lost my spouse of 20 years. Everything I worked so hard for melted away.

I feel today that I am at the bottom of a very tall ladder and need to rebuild. I struggle with where I am at in my life. Blame myself for not being stronger, and my self esteem is shattered. I have few friends and no family. Everything has been lost and I feel I don't have the strength to rebuild from such a low point when back then, I had it all.

Also, I would like to note that 5 years ago when this all started I fell into a relationship after my divorce. It was not a good one. I missed the red flags back then and I sort of fell into an emotionally abusive relationship. This relationship has also contributed to my self esteem issues but he was something to hold onto I guess. Held on for 5 years and it just ended last month.

Today, I find myself alone, with nothing. (I do have a great job that I am thankful for), but not much else. Finding this all a very hard pill to swallow and feeling like I should have been stronger and should have been able to prevent it all from happening.

Very unhappy with where I am in my life and feeling Ive not the strength to rebuild from here at 41 years old.
Great Job? What do you do mate?
 
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Duck1991

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I just wanted to say your not alone . I am finally getting my life back together after being ill.
 
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