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hard time accepting



New member
Oct 15, 2018
hi - i am new to this forum, but i figure it's worth a shot. i'm 30 years old diagnosed bipolar 1 and clean from drugs/alcohol for 6 years. i've been on meds (lamictal, seroquel, abilify) for years and they definitely have worked.
i have had really severe manic episodes but recently everything has been fine. like, for a few months at this point. i am really having a hard time accepting the fact that i am, truly, bipolar. i really want to go off my medicine because i feel healthy.
i know this is so common, but i would love if someone else could tell me about his/her experience if similar. thank you so much.


Well-known member
Jan 2, 2012
Hi and welcome to the forum :welcome:
You are not alone! Plenty of members here in the same position as you.
I too am stable and have been on and off my meds over the years. I've now accepted that I will be on meds for the rest of my life and I've come to terms with that. Looking back at failed attempts to come off them and lead a med free life realise that it's not going to be me.

Have a look around the forum you should find it friendly and supportive here.
Keep talking


Oct 15, 2018
Hi like Foxjo i will be on meds for the rest of my life. I have rapid cycling bi polar1 and things are bad enough so not taking my meds is not an option for me.

Funnily enough i have responded to a thread where i suggested acceptance is the key. I found that concept not easy take on board but i thought what else could i do? Previously i tormented my self in asking why and how only to find there was not an answer that easily come to mind.

Take care.


Dec 19, 2017
Hi I'm new here too. I accept I am meds for life. I think it would be interesting to read any studies on patients who are compliant vs those who aren't. Its a tricky thing to ask your psych.
Good luck!

tarantula keeper

New member
Sep 21, 2018
congrats on your 6 years clean :)
Poopy Doll

Poopy Doll

Well-known member
Jun 13, 2015
Fort Lauderdale, Florida, USA
Hi Katiecamp and welcome to the forum. I feel the same way about acceptance.

I have fatigue from the meds and have no choice but to reduce.

I get a lot of influence from anti meds people. So I tend to want to stop my meds over a period of time. I'm really tired of the anti meds people.

Mostly I have a love/hate relationship with the meds.


I'm on meds for life to (for Depression/Anxiety, I found that out the hard way 12 years ago, when I was feeling so good I thought Im going to try without my meds, oh dear I got so low I went down to my local river and for a split second thought to myself ' I'd be better off in there' wow that was it back on my meds, Iv come to the conclusion that my system obviously doesn't produce the chemicals needed to keep me well, if it ain't broke don't fix it is the way I think now, take care all.


Active member
Oct 12, 2018
Good for you it's good that you want to stop all medications at once.
You have left drugs and alcohol for 6 years.
Now you can leave these new legal drugs because if not what would be the meaning of all this change one addiction for another?
I know that at first it will cost you and you will have abstinence syndrome but in a couple of months you will be better than ever.
I recommend leaving the seroquel first and the abilify follow maybe 6 months more with the lamictal.
I have been for 6 years with all that garbage of psychotropic "medicines" 6 months ago I leave them and I am better than ever.
Of course I had "bipolar disorder 2" which is an invention of pharmaceutics to rename depression.
With bipolar disorder 1 the thing is a little more serious but in short it is the same.
Being legally drugged is not going to improve your life that's for sure, just as I do not improve alcohol and illegal drugs only provide temporary relief.
I recommend that you read articles by Joahnna Moncrieff the most important British psychiatrist of today who can guide you in your detoxification process.
Greetings and good luck in your new way!
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