- Apr 14, 2019
So a few nights ago I hung out with my friend and her two guy friends, we went to play pool. I was having thoughts thinking the guys were cute and stuff, and I felt weird that I didn’t have my boyfriend with me around these two guys. Well yesterday I started thinking about the occurrence again. I started to get worried what if I did something horrible with the guys and I don’t recall it. Like what if I cheated on my boyfriend and I don’t remember. I keep playing the situation in my head we went out, played pool, and I minded my own business. But then as I’m thinking that I’m imagining other parts along with it that aren’t true at all. Like I keep thinking I might have kissed the guys and got their numbers or something. But I know thinking my back to that day none of that happened. I’m getting scared and nervous, I know if I ever did something wrong I would not stop thinking about it and I would feel terrible. I’m scared, I asked my friend who was there with me if anything occurred and she was my source to say no we just played pool and that’s all. I’m just nervous, I love my boyfriend so much, I want to marry him one day. I would never ever do something like that to him. I know I’ve had similar occurrences happen where I over think something and had parts to the puzzle that never actually happened. I’m scared, I just want to make sure this is just my mental health messing with my head. I need some validation.