
invise
Well-known member
Hi everyone,
I just want to rant and let something out, im sitting here flooding in tears and so light headed right now. I hate my life. My parents came in earlier and asked if I wanted to go to a pub quiz with them and my sister. They were like "we never go out together, it'll be nice". Fair enough. But i had already made plans to go out with some mates ive not seen in months because they were away at uni - now their back for easter. Ive got sooo much uni work to do, and id put aside tonight especially to see them. When I told my mum she flipped and started throwing all this guilt trip at me. I know I need to spent time with them, but I also need to see my friends, so how do i chose?
I couldnt, so they left without me after a huge argument, and I text my friends sayin i wasnt coming out. I just feel so low and miserable I want to hide. I know im gonna hvae to speak to my parents when they get in later, pissed as farts. Im dreading it.
I dont have any friends left in the town where I live. They all moved out to university in the city about 30 miles away. I get the train in and out when Ive got uni, but its so akward seeing them and keeping in touch. They obviously work, and so do i, and their flats are very near to my uni, they go to the other one. So I never get to see them, and I feel like ive been left behind. I was so looking forward to going out, then it was ruined.
I want to move out and get my own flat. I can afford to, ive worked it out. I have plenty money to rent somewhere. That way id be near my friends again, im forever hearing about them just going round to each others flats to "watch a video" or "have some grub" or "a few bears". Nothing overly exciting or extravegant, but they get to see each otehr!! meanwhile im left sitting all alone at home, isolated and bored stiff because i never get to see them any more. My parents dont want me to move out because they say I should be saving up to buy somewhere. Hello! cretit f'in crunch, extremely stupid house prices here! Whats wrong with renting a flat? In five or six years time i should have enough savings to buy what ever I do. Then they go on about "invest your money into life funds" and all this kind of rubbish. Whats the point in that if i dont feel like im living??!!
I have no idea what to do. I went to the shop and bought heaps of wine and sweets, and im thinking about cutting myself. The doctor said that I need to get more adrenaline rushes to stimulate getting better. To get happier or whatever. But i never feel like going out running, and music doesnt give me the rush it used to , I hate it. That alone gets me down. But surely a little cut would get adrenaline flowing? maybe it would help.
Anyway, Im such a mess tonight. Sorry for boring you if you got this far.
I just want to rant and let something out, im sitting here flooding in tears and so light headed right now. I hate my life. My parents came in earlier and asked if I wanted to go to a pub quiz with them and my sister. They were like "we never go out together, it'll be nice". Fair enough. But i had already made plans to go out with some mates ive not seen in months because they were away at uni - now their back for easter. Ive got sooo much uni work to do, and id put aside tonight especially to see them. When I told my mum she flipped and started throwing all this guilt trip at me. I know I need to spent time with them, but I also need to see my friends, so how do i chose?
I couldnt, so they left without me after a huge argument, and I text my friends sayin i wasnt coming out. I just feel so low and miserable I want to hide. I know im gonna hvae to speak to my parents when they get in later, pissed as farts. Im dreading it.
I dont have any friends left in the town where I live. They all moved out to university in the city about 30 miles away. I get the train in and out when Ive got uni, but its so akward seeing them and keeping in touch. They obviously work, and so do i, and their flats are very near to my uni, they go to the other one. So I never get to see them, and I feel like ive been left behind. I was so looking forward to going out, then it was ruined.
I want to move out and get my own flat. I can afford to, ive worked it out. I have plenty money to rent somewhere. That way id be near my friends again, im forever hearing about them just going round to each others flats to "watch a video" or "have some grub" or "a few bears". Nothing overly exciting or extravegant, but they get to see each otehr!! meanwhile im left sitting all alone at home, isolated and bored stiff because i never get to see them any more. My parents dont want me to move out because they say I should be saving up to buy somewhere. Hello! cretit f'in crunch, extremely stupid house prices here! Whats wrong with renting a flat? In five or six years time i should have enough savings to buy what ever I do. Then they go on about "invest your money into life funds" and all this kind of rubbish. Whats the point in that if i dont feel like im living??!!
I have no idea what to do. I went to the shop and bought heaps of wine and sweets, and im thinking about cutting myself. The doctor said that I need to get more adrenaline rushes to stimulate getting better. To get happier or whatever. But i never feel like going out running, and music doesnt give me the rush it used to , I hate it. That alone gets me down. But surely a little cut would get adrenaline flowing? maybe it would help.
Anyway, Im such a mess tonight. Sorry for boring you if you got this far.