Grad school and mental health

[anex]

I’ve been working on my applications for months. I’m applying to three schools for a specific program in the mental health field. Applications are due this month. I’m still going to apply, but I’ve been really debating on whether or not I’ll be ready by the fall of this year. 2020 has been hell, and there hasn’t been much improvement yet. Some. But mostly things are just becoming exposed and I’m doing everything I can to get myself well. And to stop the patterns I follow/used to follow. But it’s so hard, I’m miserable a lot of the time, and I’m just not sure if I’ll be ready for grad school in September. I want to make sure I’m well enough so that I will be the best for myself and the people I help. And so I’m ready for the intensity that is grad school. Ready for the interactions, the studying, the potential commuting, the volunteering, the projects and presentations...I want to be ready for it. I’m SO not. I know it’s only January, but from last January to now...I mean. Shit. I don’t know how my journey is going to unfold this year. No clue. I’m going to discuss this with my therapist, but in the meantime...Has anyone else grappled with this same/similar issue? What did you do and how did your decision go?

 

[karl7]

what specific mental health problems are holding you back?

 

[anex]

what specific mental health problems are holding you back?

I know I have generalized anxiety disorder, social anxiety disorder, dysthymia (maybe “double depression” because I’ve been having major depression symptoms these past couple months or so). And potentially PTSD. That’s the lens my therapy is in, but I haven’t gotten an official diagnosis. I hope to do that soon so I know for sure. I’ve also been struggling to feed myself and take care of myself in general, and have been out of work since February 2020. I’m doing what I can. I need different meds, so I’m really hoping that will help tremendously with stabilization once I find the right one.