- Oct 28, 2019
I haven't self harmed in 12 days but I'm about to give it all up. I've been struggling with body image and I've been restricting my food intake but I messed up yesterday and I gained. On top of those feelings my best friend of 12 years is suicidal and she is shutting me and everyone else out. Not asking for help and im terrified I'm going to lose her to suicide like I lost the love of my life not so long ago. I'm just dealing with too much and I don't think I can handle it anymore. I need the good feeling, I need that good feeling even for a moment. I just need to breathe.