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butterflykisses
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I feel so miserable. So depressed and feeling suicidal but also agitated, irritable, annoyed and euphoric all at the same time. It’s like I can’t escape myself and I just want to run away from everything. It’s so annoying.
I was first depressed but then I tried to bring on hypomania by using caffeine, mood light, supplements, skipping medication etc. because I enjoy the productivity that comes with it. But the depression never left and now I just feel terrible.
My main goal for the new year is to never skip medication and to start actually working on mood stability. I would actually be so much more productive that way because I wouldn’t be so easily distracted an wouldn’t be so sleep deprived so I could do a lot better quality of work. Anyone relate? I have a lot of hope for this year.
I was first depressed but then I tried to bring on hypomania by using caffeine, mood light, supplements, skipping medication etc. because I enjoy the productivity that comes with it. But the depression never left and now I just feel terrible.
My main goal for the new year is to never skip medication and to start actually working on mood stability. I would actually be so much more productive that way because I wouldn’t be so easily distracted an wouldn’t be so sleep deprived so I could do a lot better quality of work. Anyone relate? I have a lot of hope for this year.