- May 23, 2020
Hi guys. This is my second post. I decided to make another post going into more depth about my situation: I’m reaching out because my girlfriend just broke up with me (wants to take a break but I don’t believe we will get back together). I never physically abused her. I just emotionally abused her. I said really hurtful things to her when I’m hurt or upset. Like I’d say I hate her and she’s disgusting and horrible and a piece of shit etc. just a bunch of really cruel words and she never did that to me back (well except last night she said “fuck you, you fucked up my life”) this was a really loving person who’s done a ton for me but I split so much and whenever she’s not perfect or I feel like she’s letting me down or not doing something my way, I split really bad and call her names and push her away. I’m really so abusive and yes I’ve been in dbt therapy for a few months and on meds but I’m still so fucked up and I did deserve for her to break up with me. No one should have to stay with someone who’s abusive and I am that. I’ve been this person since I was a kid and I don’t understand how I’ve gotten this fucked up so early on. Like my trauma doesn’t even seem severe enough for me to have grown up and became such a monster. No one will ever be able to love and stay with me romantically and that’s all I want. I want a life long partner more than anything and she was suppose to be that but she’s throwing in the towel at 5 months.