
Enpi
Well-known member
Hi all
This is something that's been bothering me for a while. I've been much better in the past year. I've reduced my sh from everyday to once every few months and my depression has become less severe. I also used to feel numb and empty, but that feeling is almost gone too. I would never have imagined that things may change like this. I thought I'd never be natural. I thought I'd never know what it's like to live without mental illness. Now all of this seems possible but I'm not sure if I want it! It's like I've got used to it. I've got used to being alone. I've got used to having a horrible secret that nobody knows about. I've got used to losing my head sometimes and acting violently and uncontrolably. It's like getting used to the dark and fearing the light! I'm really confused. Any advice?
This is something that's been bothering me for a while. I've been much better in the past year. I've reduced my sh from everyday to once every few months and my depression has become less severe. I also used to feel numb and empty, but that feeling is almost gone too. I would never have imagined that things may change like this. I thought I'd never be natural. I thought I'd never know what it's like to live without mental illness. Now all of this seems possible but I'm not sure if I want it! It's like I've got used to it. I've got used to being alone. I've got used to having a horrible secret that nobody knows about. I've got used to losing my head sometimes and acting violently and uncontrolably. It's like getting used to the dark and fearing the light! I'm really confused. Any advice?
