malika
Active member
hi! i am new here. I had some really bad days lately with extremely high anxiety levels and depression and I am currently in a situation in which I feel I can't change much of my situation, so I feel I am stucked. its a long story, but mainly I took some bad decisions for myself considering my condition and now I am suffering of the consequences.
although I am dealing with anxiety disorder for 10 years, it was only out of my current despair that I googled for a forum to find others that are coping with similar things and situations today, so at least the loneliness that comes with all of this as a kind of side effect would be a bit more bearable. and it is a relief to read these threads!
I have finished a long term therapy about half a year ago and it feels like I am trying to deal with all of it on my own now, while I am still trying to figure out the whole complexity of triggers and all... feeling stupid with myself all and all over again. like I keep on forgetting I have an anxiety disorder, then I take decisions that are a bit to brave for me and so find myself tong to deal with it. and I understand, I want to be better than I am, its just that I am obviously not so much.
one of the things that make me feel stuck is constant self-censoring and doubting and being irritated by everything. I posted in some threads and got irritated that nobody answered which I guess is normal and maybe this is due to time differences, but there is this anxious loud voice in me that tries to convince me that I am all alone and I did something wrong and all is full of shame and and and... trying to keep opening up though, so there is the chance to find new voices
although I am dealing with anxiety disorder for 10 years, it was only out of my current despair that I googled for a forum to find others that are coping with similar things and situations today, so at least the loneliness that comes with all of this as a kind of side effect would be a bit more bearable. and it is a relief to read these threads!
I have finished a long term therapy about half a year ago and it feels like I am trying to deal with all of it on my own now, while I am still trying to figure out the whole complexity of triggers and all... feeling stupid with myself all and all over again. like I keep on forgetting I have an anxiety disorder, then I take decisions that are a bit to brave for me and so find myself tong to deal with it. and I understand, I want to be better than I am, its just that I am obviously not so much.
one of the things that make me feel stuck is constant self-censoring and doubting and being irritated by everything. I posted in some threads and got irritated that nobody answered which I guess is normal and maybe this is due to time differences, but there is this anxious loud voice in me that tries to convince me that I am all alone and I did something wrong and all is full of shame and and and... trying to keep opening up though, so there is the chance to find new voices
