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SomeRandom
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I'm a quiet person who can only ever feel comfort in complete solitude. I can get along with another person for a bit but I always feel a need to escape after a short time no matter how well we get along. Friends and family sometimes try to force themselves in stating that It's dangerous for a person to live like this. I understand that this is most likely true in many cases but the closer they get, the more panicky I become and more likely I am to do something drastic (i.e. self harm or go into hiding).
For the last few years I've been helping my brother who has his own problems with addiction and the like. Honestly It's been hell for me because I love my brother too much to throw him out but having someone around me so much drives me out of my mind. More than a few times I've spent nights on the street or in places where no one can find me just to be alone for a while.
I've bailed my brother out of jail 10 times in the last 2 years for various things and I found out today he's back in for possession. I can't bring myself to help him this time and I don't know If this is just my wanting to be left alone or me giving up on him but I honestly feel both free and disgusted with myself. I'm at a terrible low right now and can't really talk to anyone I know about this because I don't think I could handle it. Any advice? Random words? or similar stories?
For the last few years I've been helping my brother who has his own problems with addiction and the like. Honestly It's been hell for me because I love my brother too much to throw him out but having someone around me so much drives me out of my mind. More than a few times I've spent nights on the street or in places where no one can find me just to be alone for a while.
I've bailed my brother out of jail 10 times in the last 2 years for various things and I found out today he's back in for possession. I can't bring myself to help him this time and I don't know If this is just my wanting to be left alone or me giving up on him but I honestly feel both free and disgusted with myself. I'm at a terrible low right now and can't really talk to anyone I know about this because I don't think I could handle it. Any advice? Random words? or similar stories?