Generalized anxiety/autism?

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Erickdiassb

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Hey, I am Erick and have had this uncomfortable feeling forever! I was abused when i was a child so idk how that might affect my behavior
I brush my teeth twice every time i do it and im extremely perfectionist which can be troublesome. I've been seeing therapists/psychiatrist since i was 7 and tried many different treatments/meds but i realized coke makes me feel normal... Im crippled at home and have time to go to the bakery to grab breakfast... It is unbearable, i have a hard time to text people and walk idk how to move my arms. I dont feel capable to go through this without drugs... I was supposed to be dead and here I am, i cant afford feeling this way for life, i am unable to be myself. I need serious help asap ): thanks in advance
 
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Hello Erick,

I'm sorry to to hear you've been abused as a child. I think the horrible start you've made in life contributed to your suffering in your adulthood. Does your therapist/psychiatrist know about your drug problem? If so, they should've gotten immediate help for you. Do you have any friends or relatives that you could get support from? They could help you get through tough times and help you staying away from drugs. If possible I would advice you to seek immediate help at a clinic specialized in substance abuse. I hope you will do well soon.
 
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Erickdiassb

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Thanks for ur attention! The thing is, drugs are not necessarily my problem... Im always able to start and quit whenever i desire which I've done a few times without any withdrawl but i fear to use it as a treatment and end up addicted. I didnt mean to expose myself as victim by saying i was abused but its just that i cant think of anything else that could have messed me up this way.
I have a hard time performing regular tasks outdoors but im not tryna live a life of regret and times not waiting for me to decide im gonna change... Im down to anything that might help
I was thinking of some tutorials to extreme social exposure that could potentially help me out? Cant afford private doctors specialized on my issue so i dont believe they know me enough to say whats going on with me
 

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