
Scared with BPD
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Getting a bit worried as I have my appointment with psych next week. I have been under his care previously for BPD but typically couldn't last the course (literally) of Mentalization.
Since I last saw him I had a temporary job working in the Trust Headquarters of the same hospital. I ended up working for the Chief Executive. Of course she had no idea that I had been a patient previously. She ended up sacking me as I couldn't hold down the job (same old story with every job I've had) although we remained friends afterwards.
Since I was sacked (again) in May from another job with a Council (where I had been told it was nigh on impossible to get sacked from) she provided me with a reference for the one job I applied for - didn't get it and spent nine days under the duvet after having gone through an interview.
Now I've totally sunk back under, I dared to contact her again, as I knew I had been referred back to her hospital. She was so supportive and lovely.
Still feel very worried about going back there next week as I was known by a lot of people throughout the hospital.
What do I say if people recognise me and say "hello"? I've gone over to the other side - now a patient?
All a bit awkward.
Any advice on how to handle the situation would be greatly appreciated.
Claire
Since I last saw him I had a temporary job working in the Trust Headquarters of the same hospital. I ended up working for the Chief Executive. Of course she had no idea that I had been a patient previously. She ended up sacking me as I couldn't hold down the job (same old story with every job I've had) although we remained friends afterwards.
Since I was sacked (again) in May from another job with a Council (where I had been told it was nigh on impossible to get sacked from) she provided me with a reference for the one job I applied for - didn't get it and spent nine days under the duvet after having gone through an interview.
Now I've totally sunk back under, I dared to contact her again, as I knew I had been referred back to her hospital. She was so supportive and lovely.
Still feel very worried about going back there next week as I was known by a lot of people throughout the hospital.
What do I say if people recognise me and say "hello"? I've gone over to the other side - now a patient?
All a bit awkward.
Any advice on how to handle the situation would be greatly appreciated.
Claire
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