- Mar 31, 2021
We are all 21 or about to be and just about all of my friends who didn't drink before are now starting to. I am horribly uncomfortable with it. It makes me feel out of place, and gives me anxiety. I don't want to be surrounded by anyone drinking alcohol. So just about everything they wanna do now involves alcohol. They aren't drunks(most of them) some of them are, but either way. Any alcohol upsets me. We were gonna go away on a trip and then they asked about bringing along the biggest drinker who always peer pressures everyone into drinking. At least 4 of them said they were going to(context, we never have drank on these trips before) and I said I wont go. They have known my stance for years. I respectfully said I wont be going and I hope they have fun. Maybe I'll go next time. I'm just beginning to feel more secluded. I'm okay with who I am. I don't want to learn to become comfortable with alcohol because that's not for me. It's for others. I rather be with people like me. Sadly, I don't know a single person. So I'm struggling with that as an addition to the rest of a shit show in my life rn.